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Goodbye GMA!

2010-05-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

Nine perennial years of President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo’s crooked and scandalous term will now at last come to an end. Today, we will make that big step towards a new Philippines as we go out and vote our nation's new leaders in the 2010 National Elections.

Are you ready for the new government?

Just this morning, I, together with my Mom, Auntie and my younger sister, attended the Christ Commission Fellowship's Sunday Worship at St. Francis Square. Pastor Peter never fails to amaze and inspire me.

Pastor Peter talked about two topics: (1) Elections and (2) Moms and Families.

He told us a story about a man who was asked who is he going to vote in the upcoming elections. The man answered *toot*, a leader who, at the same time, is a drunkard, a womanizer and a gambler. The man who asked the question was shocked and said "Why would you vote such a man?" The other man replied, "Bakit hindi? Eh ganyan rin naman kami."

People vote according to their character. If we are not corrupt and we really are against corruption, then no corrupt leader would ever win. Amen? Amen to that.

We make the government. Vote not according to their scores in surveys nor be persuaded by good rhetorics. What's more important is the candidates' hearts, how they really want to..

-- LEAD our country with FEAR OF THE LORD
-- SERVE the nation and thru HIM, our LORD
-- bring SALVATION to all the people.

I personally am feeling positive, that this is the time that Philippines will transform with God's grace using the next leaders as His channels.

"I preached that they should repent and turn to God and prove their repentance by their deeds."
Acts 26:20

If we repent from our sins, God will bless us. God will transform us and everything around us.

LET'S ALL PRAY FOR AN HONEST, ORDERLY and PEACEFUL ELECTIONS.

GOD BLESS THE PHILIPPINES!

P.S. Happy mother's day to the greatest mom ever, my MOM! And yes you have read that right, my Mom's the greatest! Forever and ever, AMEN!
Hahaha. :p

AvenYOU

2010-05-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

Realized that my Blogspot's not updated anymore. Decided to post my old poems I posted in Tumblr here. Poem written August 1, 2009.

Juggling with nostalgia and euphoria
I ventured this avenue I’m unfamiliar with
Knowing not what lies ahead
Surrendered everything to the hands of the fallacy of fate

Traversing this deserted road
Oh, I stumbled upon you and that glance, I can’t forget!
Reality isn’t that bad after all
Reassure me your presence, I long to live with you!
Enthrone me to your heart
Stay with me please, be mine!

7-Minute Ecstasy

2010-05-03T15:04:00.001+08:00

A poem I wrote, July 30, 2009.

Sometime between the past and the future
I’ve found myself isolated from this ever-changing deceitful world
Walking in this endless, deserted road
Setting off to a place I do not know

Somewhere between melancholy and despair
Lies this little fragile heart of mine
Best friends with misery and confined with confusion
Tangled up with the rusty chains of the past

Somewhere between hatred and animosity
Perplexed and bamboozled with all your lies
Bewitched once by your magic
Enmity. Disgust is what I feel for you now

Somewhere between isolation and desolation
I felt a presence, a company
Not long before I found myself attached
Enchanted once again by another magic

Somewhere between love and affection
Entangled by your charm
This feeling I’ve long not felt is back once again
Now you’re the source of my extreme ecstasy

Sometime between Christmas and New Year
My felicity, I have seen!
The very moment the first snow fell
My feeble heart fell for you too

Somewhere between my heart and yours
An invisible bridge connected me to you
Feels like summer during winter
Keep me, I’m yours!

Of Hearts and Fortresses

2009-09-30T20:11:00.001+08:00

Aime-moi, je suis à toi.
愛我，我是你的。
14 months I was deluged in despondency, resentment and languor. My heart has been chained with the pains of the foregone, ambushed by the quintessence of false hopes. I will never and can never love again. The pain it brought me shattered my heart into 4,072,007 pieces and it seems impossible to make it whole again.

I’ve built walls around my heart’s fortress. Surrounded by all those warriors who attempted to penetrate my kingdom, but none is ardent enough to perforate. All failed but others still kept struggling.

I’ve built a secret ingress that would lead to the pinnacle of my fortress but still, none is wise enough to find that gate and surmount the passage.

I’ve demolished all the bulwarks that made my kingdom vulnerable. My heart has been captured but was not secured by those warriors. It fell, was taken again, thrown and then lost. It was, again, lost. Pain was doubled and hopeless as it may seem, another warrior picked it up and kept it safe.

I’m not sure if I can hand you the obligation of guarding my kingdom, but then, would it be enough if I let you keep my heart? :)

“And when I lose myself
I’ll think of you
Together we’ll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon”

Utopian Escape

2009-09-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Smoke for the image.

“Why did we make it so hard, this life is so complicated until we see it through the eyes of a child.”

I love life. I may not have everything I want, but I’m contented with what I have. One day I woke up and from living in my ideal world, things turned a hundred and eighty degrees and in a snap, I realized that most of the things I have treasure already slipped through my fingers. I lived each day wishing the past would come back or at least hoping that tomorrow would be even a little different from today. I thought that my life would never be better again and I’m forever stuck to this pessimistic world I’m living in. And I was right. Everyday transformed from being bad to worst. I have created this Utopian world which in some ways, extricated me from the ever complicated-yet-so-boring world I’m living in. I associated myself with various organizations believing these could detach me from these unexplainable feelings of emptiness and discontentment. Things will never be ok.

Why am I perplexing things up? No matter what I do, the past can never be the present anymore and that the only way to disintegrate myself from this misery is by accepting that fact and making tomorrow a better today.

Utopia is real. It’s our dreamscape, it’s the world of false hope we have deep in our hearts that eventually we make into reality.

It’s all in our belief systems. When we think of the past too much, we are passing out our opportunity to have a better life. That way, we are containing ourselves only to the foregone and never thinking about doing things we have not yet done that may benefit us and make us grow and mature. We are missing out the chance for us to become better persons.

Here I am once again, standing tall, ready to embrace the world with an open heart, with an open mind. :)

Dichotomized

2009-08-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

For some reason I do not know, you just made my day. After 3 hours of swimming in a pool of numbers and formulas, finally my PS prof dismissed us. Went down and there you are, sitting all alone in that bench, waiting for me. Just the sight of you wasting your time to get a glimpse of me is more than enough. T’was the first time we’ve been with each other for more than a minute. Haha. Headed to the mall with you for some official business with the sponsors, chilled down and ate my current addiction, Ice Breaker’s Scramble. It has been a day. RM Day. :D

Conterminous with each other in some ways, I know we’ll get along well. But then, everything that’s happening makes me all flurbudgeoned. It doesn’t make any sense. I didn’t see things coming and now, I don’t think its easy to get things backtracked. I’m left with moving forth and transversing this route going to a place with no name, a place that only exists soundly in my dreams. Boo, I didn’t even get what I said.

Thanks for the day. Here’s something that would remind me of this moment:

Picture taken from the internet. Too busy to take a picture.

And hey! This isn’t love. It’s just.. my heart smiling.. Temporarily as it may seem. :)

This is What I Learn in My Programming Class

2009-08-24T14:14:00.001+08:00

Catching up with a week of absence isn’t a joke. This is one of the biggest things I have to face in school now. I don’t understand a word that comes out from the mouth of my professors. I’d prefer not to listen and just.. SLEEP. Because of that, I have to run twice as fast as I am running for me to catch up. Help!

Anyway, I’m in my lab class now. I’m done with my 2 programs – they’re up and running perfectly. The only problem I have is I don’t understand my programs. Haha. Loser. I want to sleep. And for me not to sleep, I have decided to type this useless entry.

Went to Recto this morning to pick-up the membership cards I ordered. It was ok, not stunningly wow and not oh-i-hate-this-day-because-of those-damn-cards. But then, they have to remake some cards because of misspelled names. I’m in a hurry. I have to meet someone before 1pm and it’s a quarter of an hour before 1. I still have lots of walking to do and damn, the sun is doing its job greatly – shining, shining, shining brightly and hotly. Decided to return to Recto after meeting my friends in UST. So then, off I go. Walk, walk, walk. As soon as I reached the corner of Morayta and Espana, I rode on a jeepney. Haha. That was a pretty short distance for a jeepney ride. Then after a few minutes, there I am, doing what I always do 2 years ago, walking on the Espana overpass with sweat dripping all over my face and back. No wonder I was thin back then. Lol. At exactly 1pm, I met my friend who’s sitting in a bench across their building, smiling. I am amazed with her outlook in life. Never saw her frown ever. I wish everyone would have the same brain and heart as hers, that way, the world would’ve been a better place to live in. Negativity, anger and hatred should never have a place in each and everyone’s hearts. Moreover, we should nourish it with love and care for everybody. As soon as I sat beside her, I gave her the card I told her I’d give her and talked for 3 minutes or so. I head to Dapitan to meet another friend. We were to go to the TYK Building when I saw Mang Tomas – Mr. Manong Ice Cream. Oooh, how I missed eating those ice cream buns! Everything’s just bitter-sweet nostalgia. I can’t help but walk down the memory lane.

Err, I’ll continue typing this later. My other program’s running and I have to get it checked. Here’s a glimpse. XD err. Okay. I accidentally resized it way too small.

When Your Heart Speaks, Listen

2009-08-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

People walk into our lives when we least expect them. They may not be who we’re looking for or who we’re waiting for but then, time will come that you will taste the beauty and sweetness of their love and presence and suddenly your quiet, lonely, little world will turn upside down. Everything will be out of hand. Things will change and time will fly so fast that you can do nothing more but run for the time lapsed, chances lost and moments wasted.

Follow your heart.

We should never squander time with all our “what-ifs”. Take every chance that we can get and live the most out of life. Dare not to embrace misery and melancholy but live life loving people around you. Appreciate them while you still have them for we never know when their purpose will be fulfilled and without us even knowing, they have already walked out of our lives.

Let us not wait for the time to come that we will regret life for the words not said, things not done and emotions not expressed. Live life. Take the path that will lead you to happiness.

Chaotic Serenity

2009-03-04T04:34:00.003+08:00

Photo by: Kris Anthony Viceral (http://adikparinsayo.multiply.com)
Edited by yours truly

I think about too much though I really do not know whatever it is that I'm thinking about.
I'm bothered about things I've no idea with.
Life is too complicated and time runs so fast.

Is the world spinning madly or is it just me who's stuck in nowhere?

I just miss everything.

17 Schools. One Shirt. One La Salle.

2009-02-14T07:36:00.000+08:00

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You Wanna Learn Something?

2009-01-19T11:34:00.000+08:00

Private db As Database
Private rs As Recordset
Private fs As FileSystemObject
Private txt As TextStream

Private Sub HTMLPageStart(strTitle As String)

With txt
.WriteLine ""
.WriteLine ""
.WriteLine ""<br> '.WriteLine "<head>"<br> .WriteLine strTitle<br> '.WriteLine "</head>"<br> .WriteLine ""

.WriteLine ""
.WriteLine ""
End With

End Sub

Private Sub HTMLDataExport()

Dim f As DAO.Field
Set rs = db.OpenRecordset("select * from employee")

txt.WriteLine "

' Export Column Headers
With txt
.WriteLine "

"
For Each f In rs.Fields
.WriteLine " "
Next f
.WriteLine ""
End With

' Export the data

With txt
Do Until rs.EOF
For Each f In rs.Fields
.WriteLine "

"
Next f

.WriteLine ""
rs.MoveNext
Loop
End With

txt.WriteLine "

"
.WriteLine " " & f.Name & ""
.WriteLine "

"
.WriteLine " " & f.Value & ""
.WriteLine "

rs.Close
Set rs = Nothing

End Sub

Private Sub cmdEXPORT_Click()

Set txt = fs.OpenTextFile("D:\Lim\solomon97.html", ForWriting, True)

HTMLPageStart "Churva Churva!"

HTMLDataExport

txt.WriteLine ""
txt.WriteLine ""

txt.Close
Set txt = Nothing
End Sub
Private Sub Form_Load()

Set db = OpenDatabase("D:\Lim\solomon97.mdb")
Set fs = New Scripting.FileSystemObject

End Sub

Programming. XD All I did is Multiply. That's my secret to learning. Haha! Gayahin niyo ako!

Stupidity

2009-01-19T05:39:00.000+08:00

Why are some people born idiots? Stupidity strikes again.

Spell PATHETIC, K-A-Y.

I've to stop this CRAP.

Achievement!

2009-01-16T08:08:00.000+08:00

Nakalangoy ako sa 10 feet! Akalain mo yun! Weakness ko pa man din ang swimming. Achievemeeeent oyea! Ang adik ko. XD

Congrats sa akin! Oyeaaaa!

Fort SantiaGO!

2009-01-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

JANUARY 10, 2008,
PHOTOSHOOT DAY.

Mr. Kris Anthony Viceral (wow, formal rin. XD) asked me to be his model (though I'm getting really fat) waaaaah. Haha.

The night before, I felt super sleepy as if I drank sleeping pills. That's not usual though 'coz I'm this nocturnal-girl-who-doesn't-know-what-sleep-means-until-it's-4AM. Because of this, I wasn't able to prepare whatever I have to bring the next day.

INTRODUCTION

Meeting time is 8AM. I had set my alarm clock to 6AM but then, I woke up 7AM. Woah, PANIC MODE. I didn't eat anything for breakfast and drank coffee na lang. Wooosh! Rushed to the bathroom. After that is the hard part, I don't know what to wear and what to bring. Should I wear this? Or maybe that? Errr, no, how bout this? It was almost 8AM when I finished preparing my stuff and off I go. Tinakbo ko na nga halos yung dapat na nilalakad ko. Gawd, I'm late. Di pa marunong makisama LRT, nagmamadali na nga ako, nagpupuno pa ng pasahero kahit puno na ang train. We met at past 830AM.

"Lawton. I miss the days.. Super."
-Kay

PART 1: THE PHOTOSHOOT

Fort Santiago. There was an entrance fee of P50 for students and P80 for adults. ( I'm not sure if its P80 or P70, I forgot T_T ) Good thing we always bring our IDs. While we were paying our entrance tickets, a Manong Guard saw Kris holding a tripod and approached us saying that if we will do a pre-nuptial photoshoot, we need to get a permit. What the.. We're students, Manong Guard! We told him na lang that we need the photos for our class. Haha! I loved the place. Fort Santiago = WOW. The ambience was great. Ang peaceful pa, super.

We were supposed to do grass shots, but the sun was too bright so we decided to look for a place where there is not much sunlight. Luckily, we found a nice place to shoot and I changed my clothes. Kris chose that orange dress I don't really like. Haha! Pero yun na nga pinaka-contrasting color sa mga dala kong damit, so yun na lang.

Click, click, click! After a few minutes, there were lots of people watching us. Huwaaa. Ano kala niyo sa amin, palabas?! Talagang dun sila tumambay pa sa tagong place na yun, eh, nung nagpunta nga kami dun walang katao-tao. Weird weird. There was these two girls pa nga na parang binubuntutan kami. Weeeeird.

"Isipin mo, ngayon ka lang nakalaya mula sa matagal mong pagkakakulong."
-Kris Viceral

Went around the place. Click. Click. Lakad. Click. Clickkkkk.

There were many tourists of different nationalities - Americans, Chinese, Canadians, etc. And oh, there were LOTS LOTS LOTS of Koreans. As in. Parang kami nga ang mga turista dun, mas marami pa kasing foreigners kesa mga Pinoy. Haha!

0130PM. We rested na. It was fun. ^____^

PART 2: THE MISADVENTURES

May dalawang taxi kaming tinawag, both refused na isakay kami, traffic daw kasi sa UST, etc etc. Whatever Manong. Drivers like you should be reported, you're just lucky I wasn't in the mood to get your plate numbers. Di kasi namin kabisado yung rota nung mga jeep dun kaya taxi sana, but then, we decided to ride a jeep na lang, nakalagay LAWTON. Dumaan nga sa Lawton, pero hindi sa Lawton na Lawton.

"OMG. Saan pupunta tong jeep na to? Sana bumaba na tayo dun sa malapit sa Lawton, too late na!"
"Bahala na, adventure toooo!!!"
"I think I know na san pupunta tong jeep, China Town siguro."

And yun nga, dumaan nga sa China Town and sa may malapit sa Carriedo Station kami bumaba. Change of plans, super. Haha! We ate na lang sa Jollibee Carriedo, makikipagkita kasi si Kris nun kay Rona, a photographer friend of his.

"Tuwing kakain ako sa Jolibee dito sa Carriedo,
dito ako lagi napupunta sa mesang 'to, dito rin mismo sa upuang ito."
-Kay

"Destiny mo nang maupo sa upuang yan."
-Kris

PART 3: THE PHOTOGRAPHERS

Hidalgo, Hidalgo. Photography galore. Ang daming cam! Nosebleed lang mga usapan ng dalawang kasama ko, di ako makarelate gaano. Haha! Hintay lang kayo, next time pati ako kasama niyo na sa pagcacanvass ng Photography stuff. =D

After the Hidalgo experience, we went to UST na, nagsubmit ng portfolio kasi si Kris and Rona sa Varsitarian.

While we were in UST pala, I saw this blue Kia Pride car from afar and thought, "ano kaya kung yan yung car namin dati? Super destiny naman yun kung sakali.."
Palapit yung car..

"WTF WTF WTF TEZ 375!?!?!?!?! Teka, tama ba!??! TTTT-EEEE-ZZZZZ 3333-7777-5555!?!?! OMG OMG OMG OMG. Yan nga yung kotse namin dati!! Yan nga! As in yan talaga!!!"

"OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!"
-Kay

Grabe, I was shocked super. Kukunan ko dapat ng picture pero the car was running fast so the time I had my camera, it was too late. Ang layo na nung car. OMG talaga. Super WOW.

PART 4: THE ICE CREAAAAM

Cerealicious. Treat ni Kris. =D He ordered Oreo and Juliet and me? I forgot what I ordered! Wahaha! I'm not a suki of Cerealicious eh, huwaaaa. Pero I love Cerealicious. =D Since naubusan ng ice cream sa Cerealicious, we headed to San Mig Foodstop and bought a pint of ice cream - Double Dutch yaaay!

"Love ko talaga mag-ice cream, pero nag-i-ice cream lang ako pag may kasama ako."
-Kris

Engineering Building. Pavillion. Tambay. Chika. Shoot. Reminisce. Nakaka-miss. Waaaah.

PART 5: THE CHEVERNESS

So why cheverness? Kasi wala na akong maisip na title. Haha! Went to 7-11 (my favorite store! =D) to buy slurpee for me and Gatorade Blue something for Kris. I just love the 7-11 store in Lawton. Ang daming memories dun. Tapos ang sarap mag-people-watch. Stayed there for almost 30 minutes, I think. Paglabas ng store, ang lamig! Parang may aircon sa labas. Yun. LRT na. Ako, pa-Monumento and si Kris, pa-Baclaran.

It was a fun-filled day. Nakakatuwa. Waaaah.

"Nakaka-miss ang buhay Tomasino pero mahal ko na rin ang buhay Lasalista.
If only I could be in two places at the same time,
in two schools at the very same time."
-Kay

Goodnayt

2009-01-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

At dahil nagpost ka pa ng blog entry para sa goodnight, ako rin! Haha! Kala mo kaw lang ah. Haha!

Goodnayt Ate Daneninig. Kelangan mo na rin matulog kundi pano na si Pusa. Haha! Lets make zzzzz na. Asa. Haha. Magsusulat pa ako ng mga text messages at babasahin ang buhay nila Odysseus. Haha. Goodlak na rin sa mga itatayp na mga minutes. Haha.

Goodnaaaayt! =D Pusa. Meow.

Just my luck! I've to change ME!

2009-01-06T09:38:00.000+08:00

January 05, 2009. First school day of the year. Like others, I still didn't want to go to school, bitin sa bakasyon super. Worked with my school works just the night before: 2 concept papers, take home prelim exam in Philippine Literature and reviewed for my prelim exams for World Literature. How I wished then that the night won't end na lang. But that's just impossible. I managed to finish my paper works but haven't reviewed that much.

545AM. I woke up. Ate my breakfast, took a bath, did my morning rituals.

7AM. School. Stayed in one the cabanas to read my mythology book. I have to memorize all their names, gawd. I love mythology - Roman, Greek, whatever pa yan. Yeah, I really do. Pero mythology exams are just different. Umaayaw ako sa mythology kapag exam na ang pinag-uusapan. I don't know, sa professor ko lang ba yun na mahirap magbigay ng exam o ako tong nabobo dahil sa katamaran.

730AM. Gosh. Philippine Literature class. Nakakatamad super. 10 minutes passed. Wala yata si sir! After a few seconds, there he is, papasok na sa room. Huwaaaa.. Nakakatamad! He talked about our take home prelim exam. I figured out pa nga na 2 out of the 3 questions he gave us, mali pagkakakopya ko! So ewan ko lang kung tama pa yung mga sagot ko nun. Hay. Inaantok kasi ako super nung nag-discuss siya noon about that take home exam.

"There are some things in life that are not meant to be understood but to be accepted."
-Sir Dicen

Here we go again with Sir Dicen's words of wisdom. Kahit super siya mag-criticize ng kahit ano o kahit sino, this is one thing I like about him. So far, he's the only professor in our school who made me jot down what he says, uhm, not really, pag lesson kasi, hindi naman ako nagjojot down. Haha. Yung mga ganitong words lang kinokopya ko.

So eto na yung ilan sa kanyang mga sinabi yesterday. Though pag-ookray, natawa ako. Haha!

"Man, by nature, is intelligent. But man's intelligence is limited. Kaya nga bilog ang ulo ng tao eh, kasi may hangganan. Kaya nga sabi sa sukat raw ng utak nalalaman kung matalino ang isang tao, kapag maliit ang ulo, maliit rin ang utak, utak ipis, bobo. Kung malaki naman ang ulo, sabi nila matalino raw, pero ang hindi nila alam na yung iba, hindi naman talaga matalino, may hydrocephalus lang."

"Ang mga Pilipino, makabago na talaga, marami nang may halong lahi kaya magaling! Galing ng Amerikano, ng Tsinoy, ng Hapon, pero ang pinakamahalaga, ang kapal ng mukha ng pagiging Pilipino! Kaya umaasenso!"

New Year Churvas:

"Sabi nila, pag new year daw, maglagay ng maraming coins sa bulsa para swertehin, para yumaman. Kalokohan! Kahit isang truck pa ng coins ang ilagay mo sa bulsa mo, kung batugan ka, kahit kailan hindi ka yayaman!"

"Wag daw maghahanda ng turkey kapag new year. Kasi ang turkey raw parang manok, isang kahig, isang tuka. Eh, kung bigay lang sa akin ang turkey, bakit hindi ko ihahain yun?! Eh yung maliit na turkey nga $50 na, tapos hindi mo ihahain?! Eh mas malas pa yung hindi mo ihain yun di ba?!"

"Pag new year daw, tumalon para tumangkad. Isa pang kalokohan! Kung si Dagul ba naman ang tatalon, kahit anong talon niya hindi siya tatangkad kasi nga unano siya!"

Oh diba. San ka pa. Haha! First class was pretty good. Not bad to start the year with. =D

9AM. Phil. Lit's over. My next class = Trigonometry, 12PM. Stayed in our office muna. 12PM. Oh my. Inatake ng super katamaran. Didn't attend my class. Hay. I won't do this again. Grabe, ang bad ko.. T_T Ate lunch na lang together with Ate Daneninig, Ate Phia and Ate Shiny. VetMed people. Parang ang sarap tuloy magVetMed. Waah. Nakakatuwa pa, Will texted me saying he has something for me from Iloilo. Piaya! Yaaay! Met another friend pa pala nila Ate Dane, si Kuya Syrd. Haha! VetMed people are cool. =D I just wonder why I'm not close with the ComSci people here. Waaah.

0130PM. Computer Programming 3. Tinatamad ulit pumasok. 3 hours yun, laboratory class kasi. Katamad. Hindi na pwedeng hindi pumasok, it feels bad rin kahit papano. So there, I attended my class. New topic. Crystal Reporting. I think it was cool. Buti na lang pumasok ako. And being the pasaway that I am, while our professor's discussing bout that Crystal Reporting, you know what I did? I downloaded Photoshop brushes. Lots of Photoshop brushes. Haha! Kahit may firewall and restrictions yung mga computers, I managed to pass through all of it! Wahaha! Bad koooo!

0430PM. Oh my. World Literature. Prelim exam. I haven't reviewed much! Siguro 50% lang nareview ko. Syet. Ang tamad ko kasi. I've to change this. 15minutes. 25 minutes.

"Sana wala si sir para makapag-review ako. Promise magrereview na ako. Promise talaga."
-My mind

My classmate announced na wala raw si sir so yaaaay! Walang exam! Sa Thursday na! OMG OMG. I've to review super super!

I <3 You, Jesus! You heard my heart!! =D

Reunionologies

2009-01-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

JANUARY 2, 2009 - a day after New Year's Day, may 3 lakad ako: (1) get togother ng LYC, (2) reunion with highschool kada and (3) kainan and gala with CSB friends c/o Van. Dahil di ako pinayagan sa LYC get together dahil sa masyado raw malayo ang MOA, dun na lang ako sa reunion ng highschool kada ko. Dun kela Van, hindi na pwede kasi nauna na ako nag-oo sa reunion namin. Super fun day. Nakakamiss ang buhay highschool super.

REUNION - ito yung dahilan bakit nagkita-kita kami kanina. Kasi miss na namin ang isa't-isa. Ito yung pagsasama ng mga topakin, pasaway, makukulit at ewan na mga tao.

TROPANG PASAWAY + BJ - mga kabarkada ko nung highschool, mga ka-reunion ko. Tropang Pasaway = Ako, Ache, Abbey at Leo (err. Kabute?) + Gerome (Tukmol) at si BJ (Higante) pero di nakapunta si Gerome dahil may office raw siya, ewan, nagsisipag. Holiday naman. Wah. Isang Comsci (ako), Advertising (Abi), Computer Engineering (BJ) at dalawang Accounting (Ache at Lei). Si Gerome nga, nagtatrabaho na sa isang office somewhere in Intramuros. Mga taong pasaway. Mga adik. Mga malalakas magtrip. Mga totoong kaibigan.

TRINOMA - Triangle North Manila, yun sabi ni Abbey na meaning ng TriNoMa, nabasa raw niya yan sa Manila Bulletin kaya walang aangal, walang kokontra. Dito kami nagreunion. Dito kami lagi nagrereunion. Peyborit hang-awt namin.

MUKHA NI KFC AT SA MAY "M" NG MCDO - nasa 1st floor ng Trinoma, sa may activity center. Dito pinapupunta ang mga kaibigan pag late sila at hinahanap ka na nila dahil anjan na sila, at kami.. Nasa 3rd floor, pinapanood sila paano mawindang sa kakahanap sa amin. Pano kami nakita? "Tumabi ka sa mukha ni KFC, tumalikod ka. Hanapin mo kami dun, yung mga kumakaway na mukhang ewan. After 48 years, nakita na rin kami sa wakas.

THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME - linyang bagay na bagay kapag kumakain ka Chowfan sa foodcourt ng Trinoma tapos makikita mo pababa sa escalator yung mga lab na lab mong friends. Saktong-sakto. Patapos na pati ako kumain nun, mga isang kutsara na lang.

TIMEZONE - eto lagi naming pinupuntahan sa Trinoma. Arcade. Laging blockbuster. Marami kang makikitang mga adik. Siksikan lagi. Kahit konti lang tao sa mall, pag pumunta ka sa Timezone, maiintindihan mo bakit konti lang tao sa mall - sangkatutak kasi ang nasa Timezone. Haha.

ADIKS - Makikita sa dalawang Timezones sa Trinoma. Mga taong hindi kumukurap ang mga mata dahil nakatitig sa screens ng nilalaro nila at kahit wala na sa harap ng arcade machines, eh, sige pa rin yung kamay nila sa kapapalo sa mga 'imaginary' machines. Mga isang oras mahigit ang hihintayin mo para makagamit ka ng ginagamit nilang games.

SQUIRTING FOUNTAIN - pangalan ng isang fountain sa park sa Trinoma. Yung may fountain sa 1st floor na magssquirt ng tubig papuntang 2nd floor tapos papuntang 3rd floor at papuntang 4th floor pa yata. Basta nagssquirt siya at ang cool niya, nalimutan ko lang kung ilang floors yung fountain na yun. Bansag ni Abbey yan.

BLUETOOTH - yan ang kailangan mong i-on ayon sa mababasa mo sa isang advertisement whatever sa labas ng Timezone na mas konting tao. May FreeBs daw. Kaya kami, on agad. Walang virus virus! Basta may libre, walang takot-takot! XD

FreeB - yan raw yung makukuha mo pag nag-on ka ng Bluetooth sa Timezone. Basta sa TriNoma.

TRIPLETS - magkakapatid na adik na naglalaro sa mas konting taong Timezone. Mga adik sa Guitar Freaks at Drum Mania yata yun, basta yung parang may mga non-stick fry pans na nakakabit sa machine tapos may mga ilaw-ilaw na blue, green, red, basta may colors. Mga rich kids, gold na ang Timezone card at mukhang lumaki sa loob ng Timezone. Hayup sobra kung magsipag-laro.

BATTERY - Mortal enemy ko sa tuwing may lakad ako. Kung kelan ko kailangan, saka pa nadedead ang battery ko. Pano na yung pictures niaaaan. Tsk.

PUTI - suot ng mga kasama ko nung nag-reunion kami. Kala mo pinagusapan na may color coding sa paggamit, pero wala.

JACKETS - suot ng mga tao pag malamig. May iba-ibang style.

DRUMSTICKS - mga kahoy na nakaipit sa bag ko. Pinagkakamalan akong tumutugtog sa banda dahil dito. May gusto pa ngang makijamming sa akin eh. Kala mo naman marunong ako? Haha! Pwede pa, strawberry jamming. Hehe.

BASKETBALL - paboritong game sa arcade. Naka-score ako ng 111 lang. Wahuhu. Blockbuster ang pila. Maraming mga adik na umaabot sa libo ang scores.

GHOST SQUAD - arcade game na baril-barilan chever. Uniform ko dun is Ninja and yung weapon ko eh.. ewan. Basta baril! Dahil dito, naturingan akong war freak nila Abbey. Haha!

BATUHAN GAME SA ARCADE - nalimutan ko yung pangalan nung game eh, basta may mga kailangan kang batuhin sa screen using small, colorful balls. Super blockbuster rin. Kahit isang swipe lang, isang batalyon ang pwedeng maglaro.

FOODCOURT - lugar na may mga upuan tapos maraming mga kainan. By 4's ang majority sa mga upuan don. Sa pinakababa ng Trinoma. Katabi lang ng Landmark na grocery. Dito nagpupunta kapag mga gutom at pagod na after magpaka-panic mode sa Timezone.

GIDRUMS at +20EXTRASTRONGPHONE (tama ba? hehe. ) - Eto yung mga sinendan ni Abbey ng picture ng cake thru bluetooth nung nagtrip kami. Yun pala, bluetooth yun ng mga kasamahan namin. Ang ewan lang. Haha!

ANGELICA DELA CRUZ - artistang nakasalubong namin nung papasok kami ng CR sa may foodcourt. May narinig pa akong siya raw si 'Angelica Panganiban". Haha.

CHOWKING - Lahat ng kinain ko ngayong araw eh puro Chowking. Haha! Pero ok lang, wala namang kasawaan sa pagkain.

CHOWFAN - inorder ko nung lunch at eto rin yung tinreat sakin ni BJ nung dinner/snack time namin. With matching dumplings pa. Hehe.

TOY STORE - pinupuntahan ng mga college students kapag namimiss nila ang kanilang kamusmusan. Para mag-enjoy sa katitingin ng mga toys kahit wala ka naman talagang balak bumili.

CHOPSTICKS - Eto ang ginagamit sa pagkain ng rice. Bawal itusok sa Chowfan kasi bad manners yun, dapat nakalapag lang.

SPOON - ginagamit kapag hindi mo na kayang i-chopsticks ang Chowfan.

BENDABLE STRAW - straw na binibigay sa Chowking. Pag tanga ka at hindi mo tinitingnan nang mabuti, aakalain mo ordinary straw lang yun until makita mo sa kasama mong umorder rin sa Chowking na bendable yung sa kanya. Saka mo lang marerealize na baliktad pala yung lagay mo ng straw sa iced tea at magiging dahilan ng laugh trip ng buong barkada.

ENTRANCE / EXIT - mga doors sa Trinoma na may sensor. Pag tumayo ka sa harap nun, automatic bubukas ang pinto. Kung malakas trip mo at malakas loob mo, tumayo ka lang sa harap nung entrance o exit para never na sumara yung pinto, pati ikaw never na aalis dun at bukod sa pagtitinginan ka ng tao, malamang mapapagalitan ka rin at iisiping ang weird-weird mo.

BAHA - makikita sa poster ng Trinoma sa harap ng SM na side. Sabi dun na nanalo raw ang Trinoma sa architecture and design sa Asia, 2nd place. Pero pansinin mo, imbes na kalsada yung nasa harap ng Trinoma sa poster (tarp whatever), eh may baha, parang river!

UE LETRE - bus na sinasakyan namin pauwi pag galing Trinoma. Mahaba ang nilalakad. Swerte mo pag makasakay ka kaagad.

930 PM - yan ang oras ng uwi kapag nag-enjoy ka sa reunion niyo. =D

Farewell 2008! Hullo 2009!

2009-01-01T17:52:00.000+08:00

An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.
-Bill Vaughn

Yeah. It's New Year's Day. Mas masaya pa ang New Year ko kesa sa Christmas. Wah. Here are some the reasons:

1. First time namin na-open lights ng Christmas tree namin nung New Year's eve. I dunno bakit kagabi lang namin binuksan yung lights. Ay, nabuksan ko na pala lights nun, nung tinayo ko yung Christmas tree namin. Wah.

Our Christmas Tree. Madilim lang. Taken last night using my Nokia 6300.

2. New Year = New Puppy! Pag gising ko kahapon, may nakita na lang akong puppy dito sa bahay. We named him "Happy" para HAPPY New Year pero I call him "Doogeh" (parang Doggie pero baliktad). Haha! Native dog. Cute cute. Super bibbo pa!

PICTURE ABOVE: Disdis (upper) and Olin (lower) with Happy.
BELOW: Akoooo at si Happy Doogeh!

3. The fireworks. The sparklers. And the pictures!

Ako. Nag-iisparklers.

4. My Ube Halaya Sandwich. Freakin' weird that I am. Nilagay ko sa bread yung Ube Halaya and shaped it - letter K.

My K-shaped Ube Halaya Sandwich.

5. Pictures.

Me, my Mom and my Ache. Sabi ni Mommy niyan, "Huwag niyo akong picturan, panget panget ng suot ko eh!" Sakto lang na na-capture siya, so, sorry Ma!

6. My phone's back! Nabuhay na ang phone ko! Mula sa kanyang pamamahinga mula 7 PM ng December 25, dinala namin siya sa Nokia Center sa Cuberzone and yay, andito na siya! Rejoice!

7. Super movie marathon! Oh yea. Watched 4 movies yata today. Nalimutan ko, STM gawd.

8. Tried registering for unli last night, 630PM. Tanga-tanga, nalimutan kong mahirap nga daw mag-register. So ayun! Lumipas ang 12AM na di ako unli. Good thing is around 2AM, nagtext sa akin si Globe na unli na raw ako. Wahoo! I consider myself lucky pa rin. Yay!

Oh there. My New Year's day. To all, good luck! Nalagpasan natin 2008! At kering-keri natin nyan ang 2009! Go go go! We'll rock 2009!

BTW, since nasira nga ang phone ko, I lost most of my contacts. Yung mga natira lang eh yung mga lumang contacts ko naka-save na sa sim. Lahat ng nasa phone memory went buh-bye. Ayun, please send me your contact numbers para ma-update ko yung phone book ko. Nakakawindang pag maraming nagtetext sayo tapos puro numbers lang nag-aappear. Ang mas mahirap pa, eh, pag tinetext mo kung sino sila, konti lang nagrereply. Nakakawindang. Haha. Happy new year ulit!

We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.
-Edith Lovejoy Pierce

Damn Thermal Paper

2008-12-27T20:02:00.001+08:00

I'm currently working on my collection - receipts, food wrappers, tickets, scratch papers, tags, whatever. I just keep everything.

Errrness lang talaga, the time I opened my old shoeboxes full of the stuff I mentioned above, I noticed, yung ibang receipts ko, nabubura yung mga nakasulat kahit they're well kept. Damn those thermal paper receipts. See.

THERMAL PAPER RECEIPT

The old receipt was dated October 16, 2008 and the new-er one is.. I forgot the date. Basta its newer, maybe like November or so. I dunno what's with my scanner now, it doesn't scan really good so I can't see the date. I must do some adjustments.

ORDINARY RECEIPT

Here are some of the ordinary receipts from my collection.
Left = July 2008
Right = May 2008

See? Malinaw yan, yung pagkascan lang di gaano.

Ok sana yung thermal paper eh, maganda tingnan and everything, pero sa longivity, talagang nabubura siya. Sana yung ordinary receipt na lang ginagamit sa market. Or sana maayos yung whatever is wrong with the thermal paper.

Christmas Ampness

2008-12-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

My phone died. As in dead - off.

Nagsusulat kasi ako nun, and nalowbatt ako, then poof! Nung chinarge ko na, ayaw na mag-on. =(

Ayaw magload ng messages and gallery. Nagrerestart every 3 minutes. Hay. Saktong Christmas Day pa.

Help.

Alphabet of Thanks

2008-12-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

During the past months, I have experienced depression, loneliness, emptiness, etc. I have been apathetic, emotional (super!), nostalgic, or whatever you may call a girl who’s obsessed with her past. I thought that I'd be like that forever, thinking that what's over can't be the present anymore. But now, I realized that I'm not like that anymore, so I dedicate this entry to all the people who have helped me be who I am today, a person who had died mentally and emotionally but resurrected and now, a better and a stronger person.

My Alphabet of Thanks

A - ACHE. My super loved sister! You know what, you're just the best. I am so lucky you're my sister. Though you're super pasaway and hard-headed at times (huwaw, hindi halatang mas bata ako no? lol.), you're still the BEST. Huuuuugsss!!! Lablab. =)

B - BES. My guy bestfriend, Kris. =) Marami nang pinagdaanan friendship natin and you're still here. I just want you to know that I appreciate all your efforts and sacrifices, super. Lalo na yung sa kaadikan ko sa V-League that you went home super duper late at na-dedz ka sa mom and kay Ate Ice mo (wow close! =D). Thanks to me, you were grounded. Haha! Thanks. I treasure our friendship alot, kahit di halata. Promise. Hehe. Oh, and sorry kung wala akong kwentang katext minsan, sinasabi nga ni Franz, "Oh, yan Kay, nagdisappearing act ka na naman." Sorreeee! Huuuuuggggs! =D

C - CAT. Canlubanger Cat, the tall and pretty one. I dunno, I have known you for weeks pa lang pero somewhat I see myself in you. =D Your blogs and works inpire me ALOT. That changed me. Keep it up, Cat, you're just... GREAT! I still can't believe you're only 16. I look up to someone who's younger than me. I can't imagine my everyday without reading your blog entries. Haha! =D Thanks! Huuuuuggggsss!!!

D - DAH. Uhh, I'm sure you don't know me. Maliban na lang kung naaalala mo face ko (namin!) nung nakasabay kita sa bus. Haha! LOL. Naloka ako sayo eh (lol =D), nabuhayan ako ng energy and everything. Haha! Oh my, Kay. Tsk. Gawd. Stay great and cute! Errr, hope to see you again! =D Thank you! Huuuuuggggsss!! XD

E - ELAINE (ELAIN!). Haha. I like your name without the E eh, nasanay kasi ako ng Elain na spelling, I thought kasi ganyan talaga yung spelling nun. Haha! Uhmm, haven't talked to you personally pa eh, as in chika. Sayang, co-officer sana kita, pero I didn't stay long, I had to transfer to another school eh. Nakakatuwa, everytime I feel sad kasi, text lang ako sayo and ganun ka rin. Good luck kay GUY ha. Cuteness nung picture niyo together, sa wakas, nakita ko na rin siya (sa picture)! Ang laki ng na-help nung pagkekwenuhan natin about our experiences sa pag-heal ko. Super! Thaaaanks Elaaaaain! See yeah next year! Huuuuuggggggssss!!!

F - FAMILY. Thanks to my Mom, my Dad and to my siblings. Syempre, walang tatalo sa family. Even I felt that the world had turned its back on me (ay, may back ba ang world?! Gawd, Kay!), you were still there to protect me and make me feel loved and special. You're my greatest possession. If ever God had given us the chance to choose our families, I'd still choose you 'coz you're simply the BEST and the COOLEST. To my mom who cares for us so much, kahit ang tatanda na namin, ginigising pa, kahit sabi mo tamad ako and self-centered, kahit sabi mo wala ako ibang inatupag kundi computer, kahit sabi mo kukunin mo cellphone ko dahil text ako ng text super, kahit hindi mo ako pinapayagan sa mga gala ko, yung love na binibigay mo sa amin ay di mapapantayan ng kahit na anu man dito sa mundo. =) I love you, Ma! Super duper duper duper. To my dad, thank you super sa paghahatid sundo sa akin lagi and pati pag may mga friends akong laging sinasabay and pinapahatid kung saan-saan. Never ka nagreklamo. Thank you sa pagloload lagi sa prepaid nating SmartBro kahit ang lakas ko gumamit sa internet, super. Thanks you for buying me banana chips and cassava chips everytime nag-gogrocery ka. Thank you sa pagsusupport sa akin sa mga La Salle activities ko, super!!! I love you, Daaaaa... Bros and sisters, salaaaaamaaaaat!!! =D Family Huuuuuuuuuuuugggggg!! =D

G - GEL. Uhh, the least person I thought I'd write here. Inagaw mo siya sa akin eh. Haha! I don't even know you, haven't talked to you yet and we both know each other lang through kwentos, I think. Pero you inspired me when I read your emo entries before. And now I really am thankful for making agaw sa kanya from me. =D Errr, hindi naman talaga siya sa akin eh. Umeetchos lang ako. Hehe! I know di ‘niyo’ naman mababasa to, pero thanks talaga,as in thanks. =D Hugs?! Huuugggs!

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J – JESUS CHRIST. Our Lord and Savior. Thank You for guiding me always. I owe you everything, just EVERYTHING. I now know why all these things happened to me, it’s because You want me to be stronger and more mature. And I’m sorry for EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. Thank You. Thank You. Love You. =)

K - KAMBAL. You know my dark dark secret. Hehe. I never thought I'd share that to anyone. You never fail to be here for me. Though we don't see each other often now, though we don't write each other letters anymore, though we seldom send text messages, you were still that Kambal I knew more than 4 years ago. Kahit matanda ka na at ako, well, young pa (lol), hindi yun naging hindrance sa super friendship natin. Kelan ulit tayo gagala, Kambal? Mishuuu!! Labyu Kambal! =)

L - LYC FAMILY. My new friends! I treasure you guys so much, super duper duper. It feels great to have you guys. Our presence in the camp was never an accident, talagang sinadya yun ni God kasi gusto Niyang magkakila-kilala tayo and maging friends. See you guys soooon! =D

M – “MEECHEE”. Oh yea. So thank you for making me that bitter person. Dahil sayo, I’m striving for more. Haha. Kahit wala nang communication and everything, you were part of my history. “When love and hate collides.” I owe to you my success and failures too.

N - NO. 7, KAY APLASCA. Err, kahit superstar ka Volleyball world, di lumalaki ulo mo. Thanks for sharing your life's stories with me. Thanks rin for listening to all my heart's dramas. You know what, yung promise natin sa isa't-isa naging effective sa akin, hope its the same there. Di na ko emo! Uhh, konti na lang pala! See you on summer! Pakilala mo ako sa team ha! Huuuuuggggsss!! =]

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P - PATRICK. Closest guy friend sa school ngayon. You know what, nung kinwento ko sayo yung kadramahan ng buhay ko, life started to unravel itself. Thanks sa pakikinig sa kadramahan ko rin. =D Kelan turon session natin, ah? Don't change ah, and sorry sa shortcomings ko, wag na kayo magtampo ni Wash dahil lagi ako nasa office ah. Waaaah. Yebeng, Mr. Dimples na, Mr. CASET pa. What’s next, Mr. DLSAU? Haha! See you! Thaaanks ulit! =D Huuuuugggggssss!!

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R – RICH (Kambal!) and GAZHEL. Yeah, were treeeeplets. =D Wowowowowow na nakilala ko kayo. Nakakatuwa we have a lot in common. Pati yung backgrounds natin pare-parehas halos, amazing! Sayang di ko kayo naka-bonding dati nung UST pa ako. Bawi-bawi na lang. See you next year! =D Huuuugs! =D

S – STRANGERS. Oh yea. To all the athletes, artists, writers, students, musicians, leaders, failures, weirdos, crazy people whom I have stumbled upon, thanks. Well. strangers have the capacity to inspire me, super. Just a minute of talk with these people can make (or break) my day. =D

T - TINIG FAMILY. I never thought life in a publication would be this great! In the presence of great people kasi like you guys, ang happy ng life! Despite the deadlines, stress, sleepless nights and everything, ang saya lang talaga. Ate Dane (AE), I dunno, your presence just brightens up my day! Parang may something aura ka that makes people around you feel better, feel happy. You're this person who's great in everything you do, promise! Ate Lara (ME), I can't imagine our office without you. Parang skeleton ka ng office, pag wala ka dun, parang lanta ang office. Thank you for everything especially nung LYC! Super bonding!! =D PonkANN (NE), huwaaaa!? Goodbye Twilight, ahuhu! Like what I told you before, super natakot ako sayo nung interview ko sa pub, away mo ko eh, hehe! Pero thanks rin dun, it inspired me to be better eh. And look, now you're my PonkANN! I'm lucky to have found you! Ate Genette a.k.a AMO(AD), thanks for being a good amo!! =D Taggish! Ter-ti-payb! Panalo lahat ng banats mo, super! Napakaboring ng office kung wala ka. Wala na kaming clown lol. Haha! At syempre kay EIC, Kuya Ohman at Former EIC, Kuya Mheo, ang back-to-back tandems. Super wow kayo, the pub is so lucky to have people like you as EICs. =D I look up to all of you, friends! =D

U - UST PEOPLE. CSB! Kung alam niyo lang na araw-araw ko kayo naiisip, tsk! Super mahal ko kayo, alam niyo ba yun? Thank you for treating me still as a part of the block (the family). Distance won't break us apart. Kahit bihira na lang ako dumalaw diyan sa UST, kahit magkaaway na tayo sa UAAP, V-LEAGUE, etc., kahit green-blooded na ako at kayo, yellow, hindi niyo pa rin ako kinakalimutan. Promise kayo lang ilolove ko ng ganito sa mga magiging family ko sa class, wala nang papalit sa inyo. =D Group huuuuuuuggggggg!!!!

V - VARSITY TEAM MATES. Especially to Patrick and Washington (KEPT ft. RDS barkada) Guys, seryoso, thank you. If I hadn't known you, my first semester in DLSAU would have been super miserable. Though you often hear me talking of how much I miss my UST friends, you were still there to listen and support me. Buti di kayo nagtatampo sa akin. Hehe. Super thanks! Training ha!? Huuuuggggssss!!! =D

W – WALTER. Huwaw. Tagal na ring walang communication tapos wala ka pa sa Multiply ko. Pero super thanks. Para kang shock absorber ko eh, tuwing down na down ako, bigla ka na lang sumusulpot. Nakakatuwa. Super thanks!! =D

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Z – ZE GIRLS OF CSB. Wahaha! Gumaganun pa eh, nuh? Airapotz, Bipbip, Pepitapotz, Lyrabels, Amberlicious, RaiRaiPotz, Eckapotz and syempre, Wikiyows. Super duper duper duper duper duper duper thaaaanks. Grabe. Kung wala kayo, di ko maimagine buhay ko. Salamat sa pagtawa niyo sa mga jokes ko lagi, sa pagpapasensya sa akin twing tinotopak ako (lol, wahaha!), sa company, sa experiences, sa memories, sa lahat. Super duper thanks. See you guys soooooon! Lablab! Huuuuuuugsss. =D

Err. Sa Lahat, nabanggit ko man o hindi, super thanks. As in, as in. Sorry blank yung iba, sabaw na ako eh. Nakakadepress masiraan ng phone. =[ gawd. Hay.

Christmas

2008-12-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

Guys. I'm gonna make this simple lang.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!

Have fun! Never forget today is Jesus' day, so pray and be thankful.

Enjoy eating yer Noche Buena, friends!

Random Servei

2008-12-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

1. What's one thing that's heavily weighing on your mind?
- "WHY?" I have alot of why's.

2. What's one thing you've learned from a good friendship gone bad?
- Nothing lasts forever.

3. What's one thing you've learned lately from love?
- That it's not an assurance of anything.

4. Is there anyone special in your life in general at the moment?
- Yes. Alot. Family and friends. You. =D

5. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
- Partiiiies. Paskuhan. Text moments. Our paper's release.

6. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
- Haha. Yeah. Super.

7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
- Furends. Hahaa. Chika moments. =D

8. Are you an emotional person?
- I'm a liar if I said No. XD

9. Are you self conscious?
- Yeah, at times.

10. Do you think of others before yourself?
- Sometimes.

11. What's something that can always make you feel better?
- Ice cream. Friends. Internet! Sleep. Haha!

12. Who was the last person you had a crush on?
- Err. That volleyball player. =D

13. Where do you see yourself this time next year?
- Somewhere I'm supposed to be. lol. =D

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
- Err.

15. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
- Tinigians. Teammates. CSB. Family. Myself.

16. Is there something that you're waiting for?
- Yeah, I'm waiting for 'nothing'. How good is that? Haha!

17. One thing you're not looking forward to?
- Resume of classes. I want a long vacation. =D

18. How do you feel about change?
- It's essential and unavoidable.

19. What are you most looking forward to?
- Christmas eve. =D LYC get together!

20. What are your plans for your next birthday?
- Eaaaat. =D Invite some friends over.

21. Do you even care about your birthday?
- Yesssshhh. I want to be at least, happy.

22. Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?
- Yessssh. I have my family and friends. =D

23. When do you think the world will end?
- When God says so. Only He knows.

24. What's the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
- Hmmm. Lemme think. I'll check my closet later. =D

25. Why do you drive the car you have right now?
- I don't drive. Huhu.

26. Do you still talk to the person you LAST kissed?
- Yeah, my mom! =D

27. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
- Some of them, yes.

28. What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid?
- Flinstones! 1-6-12. Ascorbic Acid.

30. Did you get any compliments today?
- Hmmmm.

31. Are you friends with your neighbors?
- Not really. Acquaintance, yes.

32. What were you just thinking about?
- Answers to these questions. Haha.

33. Name the places you have lived in.
- Home. House. Here. Dito. My own world.

34. When was the last time you drove more than 15 minutes?
- The only thing I can drive is my mountain bike. Err.

35. Have ever had a crush your on your sister's/brother's friend?
- Ohyea. Hahaha!! =D

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The Day that Whuz

2008-12-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

December 19, 2008
Another late, late, late entry.

PUBLICATION PARTEEEEY

-I was late for.. uhh, 2 hours (?). Pero sakto lang, pagdating ko sa office, chill muna ng ilang minutes then saka pa lang nagstart parteeey. =D

-Super camwhoring with Tagz. Oh yea! We looked like crazy kids then.

-TINIG’s 30th anniversary!

-Pagkastop ng car sa harap ng gate ng school, may nakita si Dad na guy holding a parang newspaper..

Dad: Yan nab a dyaryo nyo?!
Kay: Ahhm.. *took a closer look* Yan na nga yata! Yeah!! Dyaryo na nga naming yan!!
Dad: Tingnan mo nga sa guard, baka meron na, kuha ka ng isa, daliii!!

- Foods. Fooodss. Fooooodsss. Kinain naming yung ilang araw naming di kinain! Pero bitin pa rin! Chicken lollipop. Haha! Tinapay Usapan! Dilaw na Taxi! Sa January ha? Hahaha!! =D

-Gifts. Lotsa gifts! =D Thaaaankss, Tinigians and teammates! =D

-Ohyea. Madagascar drawing book. Made me smile. Haha!

-“Love ya a bunch too!” =D

-Received a text message from someone that made me smile for hours. =D Errr..

-Saw cats doing something.. not good. Haha. XD

-A jacket for P250 & shirts for P120 = super bargain (and oh, the brand is Lee)

-SepAnx is simply contagious. Pati sa pub kumakalat na SepAnx disease. XD

ON MY WAY TO UST / BEFORE PASKUHAN

-Rode the LRT. I saw an old lady so I gave her my seat (wow ang bait. =D)

-After passing by a station, yung someone sa harap ko tumayo, and ako pinaupo sa seat niya. (And you know what? Kamukha niya crush ko! Ohmy. Haha! The..The.. Gawd!! *blush* =D)

-Central or Tayuman Station? Central? Baka sakaling makasalubong ko ‘siya’. Err. Stop it, Kay. Pathetic me. Oh yea, I need to go pala sa Dapitan to dropby Mine’s dorm. So Tayuman. Central? Crap. Tayuman. Final na yan. Tayuman Station! Too bad saglit ko lang nakita si Crushie-look-a-like. Wahaha!

-Mine’s dorm. Sinalubong ako ni AIRA, MINE and RAIRAIPOTS. Huuugs! I missed you so muchie!

-Dropped by Aira’s dorm. We made chika for a while. =D

- Giiifts. More giiifts. =D Thankies!

- Met the guys. Wow, ang bobongga niyo na. Super tagal ko na nga kayo di nakita. =[ Nakaka-miss super.

-NHIL is soooo tall. AIRA too. AKO rin, in my dreams. Errr.

PASKUHAN

-Parade. Bonggang-bonnga. =D

-Fireworks is one thing you shouldn’t miss in Paskuhan. WOW talaga eh. Humiga na kami sa damo. WOWOWOW super. May mga shapes na yung fireworks! May smiley face, flower and heart! There was also this firework na hanggang sa ground umaabot siya. Parang fire rain churva. Basta t’was great – super!

- I was given a free food stub, thanks RAI! =D May free food tuloy ako sa Wendy’s. Burger, drinks and macaroni salad! Yuuuum. =D

-Cellphone networks were terrible. All tangled up. As if all the people were in UST. Yung messages ng hapon, midnight na dumating. Paskuhan trademark.

-UST transformed to Divisoria sa sobrang jam-packed. Super daming tao as in.

-Umikot sa UST with WIKI. Actually papuntang McDo lang.

-Made chika and hunting with RAIRAI. Heart-to-heart talk. Met her bestfriend and some of her friends pa. =D

-Photography sessions with BES sa Main Building.

-Freebies hunt. Wondered (and ranted!) why there were no freebie stalls in Plaza Mayor when I realized that they were in front of the Beato building. Ayun, naubusan na ng freebies. =(

-Bands played. Join the Club, etc. Pinaka-wow ang Bamboo. The others were fine tho.

-Super sayawan sa songs. Wave!! Talon!! We were like 10 dancing then. May formation pa, ROW. Haha! Pinagtinginan tuloy ng mga tao. Haha! Super fuuun! =D

-Made chika with LYRABELS. =D Sayang di kita naka-close nun. Tsk.

-I was hugged for like a hundred times. Wahaha! Matagal-tagal na naman bao tayo magkita-kita ulit. =(

-HE is super BIPOLAR. Stop confusing RAI. You’re just giving her heartaches. Please, think about things and stand where you’re supposed to. Wag yung ganyan na dito ka ngayon then bukas doon ka. You’re making everything complicated. Sorry na. Ampness kasi.

- Waited for a friend for I think an hour.

-Left UST at 12AM, thanks super kay Dad sinundo kami. =D

Everything was great. Memories will be kept forever in my treasure box, my memory. =)

The Crap

2008-12-23T11:40:00.000+08:00

Of all the jack of all trades I know, I suck the most.

It's Over

2008-12-18T04:46:00.000+08:00

Yay! After 4 days of OVER, OVER, OVERSTAYING in our office, we finally finished our school paper. It's the first paper that'll be published since I entered our publication. Yeah, very tiring. Sleepless nights talaga but undeniably, we had FUN. Super.

We also learned a couple of things:

1. Things to bring when you will spend the night in the office: jacket, flashlight, arinola (wahaha! Tagz! =D), cellphone charger and LOTSA FOOD. And when I say LOTSA, i really mean LOOOOTS!!!

2. EIC has enough charms to let the guards allow us stay in the office like uhh, 3am? 4am?

3. When under the influence of STRESS (that's like, uhh, a drug for us.), people change - they become.. Err, not-so-PEOPLE. XD

4. Call a restaurant to explain to them why we are still in our office even if its almost morning and ask for their apology. Did I make sense? I guess no. XD

5. Tropang Bampira. OPLAN 7'11! =D

6. GREATEST FEAR: MOMS!

7. Oh yeah, we don't know what SLEEP means. All we want is to EAT. Tinapay usapan!! Wassat? Breadtalk! =D

8. Yummiest dinner? Hansel + Oheya + Clover Chips! Thank you, Ate Dane! =]

9. Prelim Exams? No need to review. We need to SLEEP. Haha!

10. You know OKOY? It's called Shrimp Omelette. Okay!? =D

11. Idiot, Shit, Whore, Bitch and Asshole are Tinig members.

12. "Don't look at my feet! Nacoconscious ako!"

13. Camwhoring is never that fun! =D

14. Protect your pictures and videos in case there's someone who'd try to delete it. Stolen shot. =D

15. When you'll home at 3AM, stay in a friend's house. Drink Mountain Dew, coffee and eat bibingka and biscuits. Don't sleep, just make chika all night long. It's fun, I promise.

16. "Sinong na-ccr?! Samahan niyo akooooo, pleaaaasssseeee."

17. Sabaw. Sabaw. Sabaaaaw!!!

18. Magtitreat si EIC ng Tinapay Usapan at Dilaw na Taxi! Pati Pinritong Manok ni Kentucky! =D

19. Those who are not part of the "Tropang Bampira - OPLAN 7'11" missed half of their lives. We had fun, super. Mainggit kayooo!!! =D Di kayo nagpaparamdam eh. Tsk.

20. "Diyan ka na matulog sa office niyo! Wag ka nang umuwi dito!" The Script. XD

21. Paper will be released later! REJOICE!! =D

22. Tagz should apply as a stand-up comedienne. Wow girl. =D

23. I should be HER tandem. Haha.

24. Theme song: "Tertipayb! Tatlo isang daan! Tertipayb!" Hahahaha. Singer: Tagz

25. We saw walking and floating green clothes with a helmet pa nga. haha!

26. 07:30pm is actually 07:30am. Hahahaha.

27. Sleep while typing a blog entry.

28. LL talks = FUN!

29. I need to sleep. Seriously.

30. Prelim exams @ 10AM. =D

KAYristmas Wishlist

2008-12-09T09:24:00.000+08:00

Christmas Wishlist!!

My Christmas wants!!

1. TABLE TENNIS PADDLE

I bought my Donic paddle for P680 but I’m just not satisfied with its quality. I shouldn’t have ran after the brand, I think I can classify what I bought only as a hobby bat. I want a tacky one! The stickier (?) the better. Any brand would do as long as it has the ITTF mark in it. =D Err, and not the pimps out!

Pwede ring:

BLADE

or RUBBER

2. LA SALLE AND UST STUFF

Lanyards, button pins, shirts, jackets, ballpens, notepads, whatever that has the UST or La Salle thing in it. I'm collecting these eh. =D I want the lanyard most though.

3. SHIRTS

I want alot of shirts! Shirts! Shirts! Shirts! Shirts! =D Any color would do. The lady fit a, not the ordinary, straight cut. =D

4. NECKLACE / ANKLET

Want! Want! My anklet broke kasi. Huhuhuhuhu. ='[

5. NEW BATTERY FOR MY PHONE

My phone battery sucks big time!

Oh, I want a picture of this! Where is my phone? Uhhh, it's dead. What the.. The cameraaa... Grrr.

BTW, my phone is Nokia 6300, battery model BL-4C.

6. WACOM TABLET

I want this! Errr, slash that. I need this!

Better yet, a TABLET PC! Roar!!!

7. SPORT SHORTS

Adidas? Nike? Whatever. To boost my spirit during trainings. =D lol. Hahaha.

8. 2 GB Memory card

1 GB isn't enough. Limited songs. Limited pictures. Huhu.

9. CAMERA

Canon, Sony, Olympus, etc. I really want a DSLR! As in I want I want I want I want! If you give me this, Imma hug you forever na! Hahaha!!

10. JACKET

Emo jackets! Haha! Black and white combination would be great!

11. PORMA SHOES

Like this!! Errr!! Kawawa my closed shoes eh, overused. XD

12. SPORT SHOES

Mine are about to break down na rin, used it in running - super, Basketball, Volleyball, Badminton, Table Tennis, etc! Again, overused!

13. ART STUFF

Scrapbook stuff and the likes! I just <3 these! =D

14. LOTSA LETTERS

I dunno, I love writing and receiving letters! The longer the better!

15. FRIENDS

Besides God's previous gifts to me (friends), He gave me a bunch of new COOL, COOL, COOL FRIENDS as His advance Christmas gift! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 !!! I love you God!! Thanks for giving them to me. =D imma take care of them promise, super!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I <3 you campers!!

16. LOTSA HUGS

Share a hug!! Gimme a hug! Luv'et, luv'et!! CSB (UST) FRIENDS, prepare my hug a, I want ALOT of them. ALOTLOTLOTLOTLOT! See you guys on the 19th!

17. ANYTHING

You can give me anything though. Whatever - a candy, a keychain, chuculet, whatever. As long as you remember me, I'd love it. Huuuuugsss for yeahh!! =D =D =D

That's all I can think of now. Oh, btw, puhleaaase include even a short letter in your gifts for me, a'ryt!? And hugs, a greet of Merry Christmas and let's greet Jesus a happy, happy birthday!! =D That would make happy happy happy happy happy!! =D

Heartache Overload

2008-12-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

Don’t I have the right to be happy? Everytime I get to see a glimpse of light, you suddenly pull me down and make me see only the dark. Why is it that everything is never enough for you? Again, I’m saying this, you never fail to make me feel like I’m never enough.

Go ahead and tell me how useless I am if that’s what satisfies you, if that’s what makes you happy. Tell me how selfish I am if being selfish for you is when I love you and when I care for you. I wish so I could disappear so you could never hurt me again. I’m tired of all these crap.

I thought you want to see me happy? I thought you want what is best for me, but what? You’re just making my life painful and your life miserable. Why do you make me feel like I haven’t done even a single thing right? Does that make you happy? Do I have to act like someone perfect just for you to appreciate me?

Now let me ask you again, are you happy now? Are you happy now that you’re seeing me like this? But still, I do not have anything against you, you’re perfect the way you are and still, I love you and that’s something irreversible.

Crap. Crap. Crap.

2008-12-06T20:05:00.000+08:00

“You shouldn’t be a jack of all trades and a master of none.” – Sir Dicen

It made me think. Ouch. Sapul pala ako. A friend of mine even regarded me before as a “Rose of all trades” since ‘Rose’ is my second name and Jack and Rose are from Titanic. I realized, I can do a lot of things but I’m not good with any of those. I can do whatever they ask me to do, yeah, but I.. Err, just don’t excel.

“Ang galing mo naman, Kay! Ang dami mong kayang gawin!” –Tagz

I was asked to do a poem for our school paper. I used to write poems pero it took me a long time to think of what to write. The time I have written my poem, I’m not even satisfied with it. I thought of a way to relate poem-writing to my forte (which now I think I’m not even good at it), arts. And poof! Finished work at the right side.

Crap. What’s good about this? A Christmas tree-shaped poem with nothing really special or striking in it, I think. Crap. Crap. Crap.

LYC Story

2008-12-06T12:57:00.000+08:00

I want to know your stories, campers. Why did (or how) your OSA choose you to be a delegate for the camp? Care to share? =D

So, I'll go first, I was walking that time when Ms. Jen (OSA Activities Coordinator) approached me and told me "I have received recommendations for you to be one of the delegates for the LYC Formation Camp." Parang something like that. So ganun lang yung akin. I was suprised and naisip ko na super lucky ko kasi they only chose 3 college representatives eh. Super thankful ako kay Ms. Jen, she opened the door for my opportunities (outside the school opportunities). =D Super thank you. =)

So what's yours? Shaaaare. =D

LYC's First

2008-12-04T19:26:00.000+08:00

Part 1 of my LYC TRILOGY. XD

- -I was with 6 great schoolmates – Ate Lara, Will, Rex. CJ, JB and our bunso, Dwight. The latter 5 are my new friends, we didn’t know each other back then. Ate Lara, on the other hand, is my Managing Editor in our school publication, Tinig.

- -8AM – EDSA’s traffic.

- -It was my first time staying and sleeping in school (not sleeping in class, I’ve done that so many times already. Haha. Lol.). Though we stayed in their retreat house, it is still uhm, in school.

- -STUPIDY STRIKES #1: You put your pillow on the side where the headboard is, not the other way around. Haha. I didn’t even wonder why I’m the only one (oh, and ate lara) whose head is in the opposite direction til I felt like something’s wrong, it’s only then that I realized. Lol.

- -Envelope mailbox = COOL! :]

- -It’s fun playing the get-to-know-each-other game. Arrange yourselves according to your birth month! Haha!

- -Kat-Kat-Kay-Kay-Paul-Pol Haha! Triple twins!

- -Birthplace: Zimbabwe. Lol. Hahaha!

- -First day lunch is almost the same as that of our food during our seminar, Scribed2008, though one thing’s lacking: BEEF CHURVA! XD

- -STUPIDITY STRIKES #2: Don’t be deceived by the wrapper a cupcake has. It’s not a fruitcake! XD

- -A talk show has never been THAT inspiring. =]

- -Live Jesus in Our Hearts isn’t really an easy song to dance. Haha! Sundance! Yea! And I forgot what they called the “Ate Minay steps”. Haha! But one thing is sure, it’s super fun dancing that!

- -Never wash your oh-so-bubbly hair even if it has half a bottle of giant shampoo in it – that’s a secret to success. Haha!

- -If there’s Plan A, there should also be Plan B and Plan C and end up not following any of these plans. In that case, Plan D suddenly appears – FOLLOW WHERE YOUR GROUPMATES ARE GOING AND JUST DO WHAT THEY SAY, without anyone knowing that there is actually that Plan D. Haha! Ok, I confused you. Haha!

- -Hula-Hoops. Luwag! Luwag! Hurry! Balik! Takbooooo!! =]

- -In a blow-the-flour-and-eat-the-mentos game, have a groupmate be the “flour-blower” and the others “blow-the-flour-for-me-and-I-will-eat-the-mentos”. Haha!

- -Never let your body touch the garter! Uhh, is that a garter?

- -STUPIDITY STRIKES #3: In an amazing race, if ever there is a part where you have to eat some food, never think that a 3-layer Sky Flakes is actually a simple 3-layer Sky Flakes and just eat it like that. After one second, you’ll suddenly realize that your nose is almost in fire ‘coz that 3-layer Sky Flakes has this green thingy called Wasabi inside it.

- -Left-Left-Right-No!-Right-Bagsak-Wag!-Forward-Bagsak!-Hindi!-Left-Right-Talon!!!! =D

- -Picture taking is part of an amazing race. Serious faces, guys!! Then laughs. XD

- -When given a puzzle in a Lasallian activity (i.e. our super enjoyed Amazing Race – The LYC Edition), it would be St. Jean Baptiste de La Salle’s picture. And keep it as a souvenir.

- -RJ of CSB is a great leader. =D

- -The winners’ prize: You get to take a shower first. (Our first shower during our camp!)

- -This is how you do the Yoga position. =]

- -“This is your lifeline. Never let go.”

- -“Be sure to choose the RIGHT path. “

- -“Knock three times and shout, ‘Lord, let me in!”

- - Something weird and embarrassing happened to me. Only I and the facis know this. Sssshhh..

- -Eating Pringles is more enjoyable if you share it with friends. =D

- -You are supposed to sleep early. Never bring your nocturnalship (taken from Kzaiwo Dictionary) outside your house.

- -When you can’t sleep, UNLI is useful. But luckily (sarcastically), you do not have enough balance so all you can do now is SLEEP. SLEEP. SLEEP.

This is cool. =D

2008-12-04T10:42:00.000+08:00

Again, stolen from Cat, meow. =D haha!

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I Realized that I'm Single, Taken and Heartbroken!

2008-12-04T04:41:00.000+08:00

Stolen from Cat - xirao.multiply.com

Wahaha! Funny. I realized how single, taken and heartbroken I am. Haha!! Enjoy! =D

Paano mo malalaman kung ang isang babae ay SINGLE, TAKEN o HEARTBROKEN?

kapag kinakausap mo ang:
* single, wala nang ibang sinasabi. kung ano ano lang. kung ano matripan niya.
* taken, walang ibang sinasabi kundi tungkol sa papabeybs niya.
* heartbroken, walang ibang sinasabi kundi tungkol sa papabeybs niya--dati. laging sinusumpa ang mga lalaki lalo ang ex niya.

kapag usapang pagibig, ang:
* single tahimik lang. di kasi nakakarelate. wala pa kasing experience. wala lang sa kanya.
* taken puro positibo ang sinasabi sa pag-ibig na para bang walang negatibong bagay sa love. sinasabing worth it ang sakit para sa papabeybs niya. di pa kasi nakakaranas ng harteyk.
* heartbroken ang pinakamadaldal. experienced at expert na! puro bigay advice sa mga friends. alam na ang mga baho ng pag-ibig.

kapag sa inuman, ang:
* single ang behave. inom lang ng inom. banat ng banat. joke ng joke.
* taken unti uminom. baka magalit si papabeybs.
* heartbroken ang walang habas na tatagay hanggang magumaga. mura dito mura doon. lahat para kei expapabeybs. magpapakalasing, magwawala, tatawagan si expapabeybs, iiyak at magmamakaawa. feeling niya may susundo sa kanya. ambisyosa.

kapag tinext mo si:
* single, magrereply kaagad yan.
* taken, di yan magrerep. katext si papabeybs.
* heartbroken, malulungkot kapag nakita na ikaw lang yung nagtext at hindi si expapabeybs.

sa group messages, malalaman mo ang babae ay:
* single kapag banat yan at jokes. kung hindi naman e wala lang.
* taken kapag di na nagpaparamdam sa group message. kung pumuti man ang uwak, ang gm niya e tungkol sa happy lab at siyempre di mawawala si papabeybs sa eksena.
* heartbroken kapag lakas gm. puro inspirational quotes para sa sarili. pero kung superr bitterr na e tungkol sa expapabeybs niyang sira ulo at sa mga mapapait na karanasan sa lecheng pag-ibig.

kapag inaya mong lumabas si:
* single, go lang. basta payag ang parents.
* taken, di pwede. kadate na naman si papabeybs. kung papayag siya, kasama si papabeybs. kung dapuan man ng sakit at pumayag, papaalam muna kei papabeybs bago sa magulang.
* heartbroken, tatanong kung kasama si expapabeybs. (may cases na kapag malandi ka, kapag sasama si expapabeybs e jojoin ka. meron din namang kapag kasama siya e bigla bigla ka na lang mawawalan ng pera at biglang mei maaalalang emergency.)

sa pananamit, si:
* single, kahit ano lang. kung ano sa mood.
* taken, simple lang. sabi kasi ni papabeybs kahit ano suot maganda siya.
* heartbroken, blooming! lahat mapapansin siya except expapabeybs. saklap. :))

Missing

2008-11-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

Why do people EXIST in our lives just for the sake of EXISTING? When in fact, I can't even feel their EXISTENCE anymore. People disappear, their PRESENCE disappears.

Nasaan na kayo? Nagtatago lang ba kayo o sadyang wala nang balak magpakita ulit?

"People always leave"
-Peyton Sawyer

Nagdrama. Sorry na.

At SAYO. Thank you for disappearing. I don't want your presence back, and yeah, I'm just fooling myself again, making me believe of things that doesn't really exist.

AmPASTlaya vs. PRUTyur

2008-11-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

Oh, nagets nyo ba yung title? Gulo ko diba?

Wala lang. Ampalaya. Pero hindi ampalaya.

Napadropby ako sa multiply niya. Aray. Haha. Pero ewan. May something sa akin na nagsasabi na buti na lang hindi nagwork out yung whatever kahit wala naman talagang whatever. NBSB. Oh diba ang gulo.

Excited na ako bukas. Feel ko bawat bukas makikita ko na si FUTURE. Whoever ka man, you're my savior sa aking kaampalayahan. hahaha.

Hoy PAST, tigilan mo na ang pambubulabog sa aking PRESENT, baka masapak ka pa ni FUTURE. Hahaha. Kabaliwan. Sabaw. Epekto ng STRESS.

SHANEthing for you. =]

2008-11-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

Haberdei Haberdei sa lab na lab naming si ERA SHANE CELIS.

I made you some chever churva. Hahaha..

Gusto mo lagay ko yan sa Friendster mo tapos i-link ko sa multiply mo? Let me know. Sana na-appreciate mo. Haberdei ulit. Ay, at nga pala. May message yang churva kong yan. =]

The Locker Churva

2008-11-18T19:05:00.000+08:00

[11.17.08]

6pm. Tapos na World Literature class ko. May pinaphotocopy. Punta sa office.

Last stop: GYM para mag-iwan ng gamit sa locker.

Pagbukas ko ng locker ko, anong nakita ko? Kaguluhan! Parang ang kalat-kalat!
"Anu ba tong mga brown na to?" Kinuha ang isa..
"AY?! Bakit? Para san to? Sino naglagay nitong mga to?"

Eh, bakit ganun ung nilaglag sa locker ko?

Sino kayang naglagay nun? Thanks ha! hahahaha..

Putek.

2008-11-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

Whatta.. What the hell happened sa Friendster?! Putek. From 700 o 600+ yata na friends, 130 na lang natira! Nakakaasar. Shetness. Tiningnan ko ibang profiles ng friends ko, at hindi ko na talaga sila friend sa FS. Waaaahh!! Add nyo ulit ako.

kzaiwo@yahoo.com

Putek talaga. Grrrrr!!

Sabaw!

2008-11-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

Nung 1st sem, bagot na bagot ako sa buhay ko. Masyadong monotonous! Kabisado ko na ang takbo ng araw-araw ko. Walang hassle, walang stress na talagang nakakastress. Walang mga bagay ng pinag-iisipan ng sobra. Keri keri lang. Studies? Chikenpid. Haha. Iba kasi utak ko nun. Pero sad ako, minsan happy dahil sa team8s pero sad dahil sa ewan.

Ngayong 2nd sem. Sabaw! Sabaw! Sabaw! Putek yung utak ko. Nasisindak pa ako dun kela walang kalaman-lamanAchilles, Paris, Hector, Ajax, Agamemnon and company, in short, sa World Literature ko. Nakakabaliw, araw-araw quiz. Araw-araw super recitation, as in isa-isa kayo at kelangan kabisado nyo talaga yung mga chapter na pinabasa senyo. Sabaw sabaw! Tuwing lalabas ako ng room magkaaway na kami nila Achilles, eh dati bestfriend ko mga yun! Putek. Hassle! Stress! Stress! Nakakabaliw. Training dito, meeting don. Pasok dito, break doon. Deadline dito, start naman doon. Pero kahit ganitong nakakabaliw na ang mundo ko, masaya ako. Haha! Super na-miss ko yung ganitong buhay. Parang bumalik na ako sa mga nakasanayan ko noon, dahan-dahan.

Lab ko kayo Tinig family ko at mga team8s ko! Pati na rin sa iba kong mga nagiging classmate at mga nakakachokaran sa gym! Hahaha! Mahal ko kayo!

Sa mga mahal ko naman sa UST, mahal ko pa rin kayo! Syempre! Di na ma-eerase un ever!! Miss ko na kayo!

Inlab...

2008-11-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

...inlaban! Haha. Inlab kunwari.

Bugtong bugtong..

Nakita na kita, nakita mo na rin ako.
Nakausap kita, nakausap mo na rin ako.
Nakasama kita, nakasama mo na rin ako.
Kilala kita, pero di kita kilala.
Kilala mo ako, joke lang yun, di mo ako kilala.
Sino ka??

Hahaha.. Pasensya na, puro kalokohan. Inatake lang ng topak.

Ang saya! Bitin lang dahil saglit lang kita nakita. hahaha.. Tapos medyo distant pa. ahuhu. Makikita ulit kita.. haha! At makakausap! Hahaha..

Putek oberlowd. Adik lang. Walang ka-kwenta-kwentang post.

Ayan ang epekto pag may namimiss. Hahaha.

Nanaits. =)

Healing

2008-11-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

Emo. Nostalgic. Bitter. Living in my past. [ Cold ]

--Galing ako diyan. O parang andito pa yata ako? I have to stop feeling this way.

Healing. Moving on. Walking forward. [ Hot ]

--Totoo na ba to? I'm such a pretender.

Middle-ground. Ok-ok lang. [ Lukewarm ]

--Andito ako ngayon. And I don't think this is a good sign. Parang stagnant na. A person should only be either HOT or COLD ang not LUKEWARM. Parang you should only be either HAPPY or SAD. Ang panget kasi kapag ganito, nasa kalagitnaan. Alanganin. I can't even differentiate now what's happy and what's not.

Kailangan kong KUMULO o kaya MAGING YELO.

Sa Opisina

2008-10-28T08:53:00.000+08:00

Anlamig syet! hahaha.. Wala lang, dakilang tambay sa office, mamaya pa kasi class ko, halos 5 hours na break. Ganito buhay ko tuwing Tuesday. Haha. Buti na lang may internet at lamig ng office, may tambayan na ako! yeee!

Yeah. Wala lang.

Tambak works ko, at konti pa lang natatapos ko. Huhuhu.

Whatta Weird

2008-10-26T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm.. May something lately na hindi ko alam, pero gusto ko. Haha!

Napansin ko lang kasi.. Nabawasan ka-emohan ko! Haha! Putek. Totoo ba to?!?!?! Hindi na ouchie masyado mga nakikita at nababasa ko.. Pati mga naririnig ko! Hahaha.. Hindi na rin ako masyado napapaisip sa mga past etchos. Epekto ba to? Putek. haha.. Sana tuloy-tuloy na to.. After almost isang year, magiging etchos na ako! Haha.. Anong etchos? Masaya? Basta etchos.. Kung ayaw nyo ng etchos, edi chever o kaya churva. Hahaha..

Gulo ng post ko. Basta happy ako at hindi ko alam kung bakit. Hahaha..

Ang Comsci at ang Anomaly

2008-10-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Nakuha ko kay elain, (meatbelainey.multiply.com). Ang kyut kasi! wahahah.. sorry na, panakaw with permission. =)

ELAIN: grabbed from ate dindin (dindin15.multiply.com) :D hehe

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Ang Comsci at ang Anomaly
by uh

Isa akong logical na tao. Logical, ibig sabihin hinahanap ko ang mga rason
para sa mga bagay at nagdedesisyon din ako base sa mga rason na ‘to.
Mahilig akong magisip, at ito ang paborito kong pastime. Nakakalibang ang
algebra, at math naman ang paborito kong subject. Mabilis rin ako sa
minesweeper. Sigurado akong kaya kong ibreak ang record mo. Pati na rin
siguro sa tekken kaya kitang karnehin. Na-solve ko rin ang rubik’s cube
nang walang nagtuturo. At kahit nung bata pa lang ako kung kelan pa lang
ako nagsisimulang magisip, sisiw lang kahit yung pinakasopistikadong
jigsaw puzzle. At oo, bago pa man ako mag-aral, nung mga tatlong taon pa
lang ako, sa unang beses kong makakita ng game-and-watch, sinabi ko sa
sarili ko na balang araw e gagawa ako nito. Tamang tama, parang planado,
at naging comsci nga ako.

Planado na ngang talaga, at parang kalkulado ko lahat ng mga mangyayaring
sunod sa buhay ko. Hawak ko ang Algorithm, ang perpektong Pseudocode ko.
Lahat ng mga mangyayari alam ko na, na parang program na ako mismo ang
sumulat. Oo, lahat.

Lahat siguro alam ko na.

Pwera ka.

Oo, pwera ka. Ikaw lang siguro yung hindi ko nakalkula. Malamang nga, ikaw
pa lang yung nakarating dito sa pinaka-loob ko kung saan nakasulat ang
matibay at napaka-walang maling source code ko. At doon nagsimula.
Nakaramdam ang robot. Nakalimutan nya ang rason, at nagsimula syang
malito. Biglang ikaw na lang yung naging rason. Ikaw na lang. Bakit, sino
ka nga ba? Kung ikaw ang millenium bug, malamang hindi ako Y2K ready. Wala
akong alam sa ganitong sitwasyon, pero bakit parang ikaw na lang ang alam
ko? Unang beses ‘to sa buong buhay ko, sa tinagal ng run-time ng algo ko,
pero kung Tekken ang buhay, eto ako, naka-hold ng forward, hindi man lang
nag-tag, at handa nang mamatay.

Ikaw pa lang siguro yung nakarating dyan sa source code ko, o sa
pinaka-kaluluwa ng isang taong katulad ko kung tawagin, kung saan ako
pinaka-mahina, pinaka-hindi nagiisip, pinaka-talunan. Ano bang ginawa mo,
at parang gusto kong sabihin sa buong mundo na mahal na kita? Hindi. Hindi
lang siguro yun dahil sa mga mata mo na kaya akong lunurin, pero maging
masaya pa rin na nalunod ako. Hindi. Nawala na ang rason, pero bakit
parang wala pa ring mali?

Kung Java program ako, isa kang Exception na hindi ko alam i-throw. At
siguro, kung sa C, kahit magcompile hindi ko na magawa. Ikaw ang Anomaly
ng Matrix ko, at kahit si Agent Smith o Merovingian e natalo mo. Ikaw na
nga ang “why”, pati ba ang “what” ikaw pa rin? Sabihin mo naman sa akin
kung pano mo ‘yon ginawa. Bakit? Ikaw ba yung the One? Kung ikaw nga, at
alam kong ikaw nga, sana ayos lang sa’yo.

Alam kong sinabi ko na sa’yo lahat, pero hindi ko alam kung naniwala ka.
Pasensya na kung wala na akong magawang iba para maniwala ka. Salita. Yun
lang. Pero hindi naman kasi “mahal kita” lang yung gusto kong sabihin e,
marami pang iba. Hindi ko lang alam kung pano sabihin, o kung ano yung
katumbas nun sa salita. Oo, hindi ko mahanap yung salita. Kahit siguro
saan language - kahit sa C++ o Java, Pascal o Cobol, VBScipt o
ActionScript. Kahit sa mas kumplikadong assembly language, o machine
language. Kahit sa mga 1s at 0s ng binary, mga true o false ng boolean, o
kahit saan pa.

Pagpasensyahan mo na ang nakayanan ng isang comsci na walang alam sa
salita, pero ngayon, uulitin ko, at maghihintay ako sa sasabihin mo, kahit
kailan pa yon at kahit anuman yon, gaya ng sinabi ko sa'yo: Mahal kita.

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please include the byline when doing so.]

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Ano say nyo? Sabog utak? Sorry sa mga di maka-relate. Haha. Iba ang mundong comsci, pati sa love pwede ma-irelate. Haha!

Kambals Day Out [ 10.16.08 ]

2008-10-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

Berdei ni Kambal nung Oct.14, pero since nagwowork na sya, gabi na uwi nya.. Eh every Thursday ang field day niya, so nagdecide siya na ngayon niya icelebrate berdei niya kasama ako.

DESTINATION: TRINOMA

As usual, taong Trinoma si Kambal eh. Ang dali kasi magcommute dun tapos maganda pa. Dun ko rin naman gusto. Taong Trinoma rin pala kasi ako. Ngayon ko lang na-realize. Haha!

0500PM. Umalis na ako ng bahay. Lakad ng mga 10 minutes papuntang sakayan, sayang kasi yung pamasahe kung magjejeep pa ako.

Hintay ng bus. Ayun. Sakay. Maya-maya, may tumabi sa akin. Guy. Dumating yung si mamang bus conductor. Sabi ko, "Trinoma po. Magkano estudyante?" P10 daw. Bayad. Pagkaalis ni kuya, kinausap ako bigla ng katabi ko.. "Estudyante ka pala? Akala ko professional ka na." At bakit naman kaya? Dahil ba muikha akong matured?? amp. O sadyang mukhang ewan lang ako. Whatever. Haha. Chinika pa niya ako, instant interview. Anu raw course ko, etc. At kinwentuhan pa ako tungkol sa comsci at ung mundo natin ngayon, about technology. Tapos nalaman ko na engineer pala siya. wow. hehe. Nasa sm na. bumaba na siya dun sa Mini Stop. babay kuya.

Trinoma na. Tumayo na ako sa seat ko, habang naglalakad ako papuntang pinto ng bus, may tumawag sa akin, "KAY!" Syempre, lingon naman ako. Uy!! Si kambal pala! Akalain mo yun, nasa iisang bus lang pala kami! Funny thing is di ko sya napansin nung sumakay siya, eh nauna akong sumakay nun ng bus sa kanya. At naisip ko nun na "anu kaya kung makasabay ko sa bus si kambal? Napaka-coincidence naman nun kung nagkataon.." And ayun nga, nakasabay ko siya sa bus! Haha! Eh siya rin pala naisip nya rin yung naisip ko.. Kambal nga diba? Hehe! So una pa lang, tawa na agad kami ng tawa.

Pasok ng Trinoma. Dun sa may nag-iinspect ng bags, may nag-abot sa amin flyer ng Taco Bells. "Waw! Napaka-coincidence naman! Kanina lang naisip ko kung anu kaya kung makasabay kita sa bus, tapos nakasabay kita. Tapos ngayon yung Taco Bells naman! Kanina naisip ko na sa Taco Bells tayo kain tapos eto na rin. Coincidence grabe!" Banat yan ni Kambal.

Ayun. Punta kami sa garden. Tatambay dapat kami, pero ang tagal na, narealize namin na lakad kami ng lakad, kanina pa kami naghahanap ng tambayan pero ayun, naglalakad lang kami. May nakita kaming art gallery, exhibit ng mga pictures, lahat may kinalaman sa 8. Yun yung theme, 8. Sana nga naging 7 na lang. Hehe! Amazing amazing. Ganda ng mga photos. Cool.

Etchos etchos. Punta sa toy store dahil may hinahanap ako.. Eh wala. Ikot lang ulit ng ikot. Then tambay sa may mga couch sa food court. Baliw tong si kambal eh, lahat ng tao nakikita, siguro habang nakaupo kami dun, 5 tao na kinantsawan nun. Yung mga napapansin lang niyang katawa-tawa. Haha! Ayun. Talk. I opened a sensitive topic. Nag-open up ako about something very personal. Buhay ko noon at buhay ko ngayon. Pati lablayp ko ngayon. Hahaha. As if meron. Oo nga, meron nga, promise. Haha. Super kwentuhan.

Maya-maya, napagod na. Sa Taco Bells na. Yey! Order order. Treat ni Kambal! Yey! Eto food namin:

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Dun kami umupo sa favorite place namin, haha. Una pa lang may favorite place na agad eh. Haha! Super pansin na naman tong si Kambal. Pati ba naman yung dumaang mag-bf pinuna, bagay daw sila. Pati si kuya sa may tabi ko, ang laki daw sumubo nung taco. Haha! Yan super namimiss ko sayo Kambal eh. Hehe! Super kwentuhan ulit. Pati yung mga kalokohan namin dati pinag-usapan. Ang kalat ko pati kumain! Bawat kagat ko halos may nalalaglag. Yung right hand ko napuno ng mayo, yung left naman ng parang red na sauce na hindi sauce, kain rin kayo dun para malaman nyo anu yun kasi di ko lam yun. Haha! Ang dami nang umupo at umalis sa tabi namin pero wala kaming kakupas-kupas, andun pa rin kami. Hehe! Yung nagbabantay nga inaabangan na kaming umalis, kanina pa kasi tingin ng tingin sa pinagkainan namin, trip na trip na nyang ligpitin. Haha. Eto yun:

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Malinis naman di ba? Haha!

Ayun. 9PM na. Hala, layas na tayo kambal! Hehe. CR MUNAAA..

Lakad lakad. May biglang humarang sa akin, "Hi! You're.................." Tapos yung kamay niya makikipagshake hands sa akin.. Aba syempre nagulat ako.. After ilang seconds saka ko narealize na tinatanong ni kuya pangalan ko. "I'm Kay." Tapos sinabi niya name niya, nalimutan ko lang. Tapos hindi ko kinamayan. Tapos tumingin siya kay Kambal, "You're...??" Sagot ni Kambal, "I'm Ria.". Sabi ni Kuya, "Oh, hi Iya!" Hellooooww.. Ria po, kuya. Hindi Iya. Haha! Ayun. Basta kinausap niya kami.

Lakad lakad. Dahil na-nosebleed kami kay Kuya, nabangag kami. CR. Hanap CR. May nakita kaming CR tapos may parang secretary sa labas.. Eh syempre dumiretso lang kami. Nung malapit na kami sa door, parang napansin ko na may gustong sabihin ni secretary.. "Ma'am, P10 for the Customer Lounge chever" nalimutan ko eh. Haha. Eh about face kami bigla ni Kambal. Aba, pati dito ba naman sa Trinoma may bayad. May ginto siguro yung anidoro nun. Na-curious tuloy kami anu meron dun. Lakad. Tawa. Lakad. Tawa. Tawa ulit. Hakbang. Tawa. At last! Nakahanap rin ng CR yey! Grabe, akala ko maiihi na ako sa sobrang katatawa! Haha!!

Pagpasok sa CR.. CR. Tapos 30minutes nagpicture. Haha! Adik lang. =)

Ikot ikot. Tawa. Lakad. Tawa. Punta sa Goldilocks. Awch. Sarado na! Dumaan si kuya. Sumigaw ba naman tong si Kambal ng "WAAAIIIIITTTT!!!" habang binababa ulit yung parang bakal.. "Ay mam! Sige po, pasok po kayo." Haha! Kambal to the rescue. Hahaha. Tawa ako ng tawa nito eh. Panu ba naman, hinarang pa niya yung paa niya sa bakal para di mababa!! Pinapasok tuloy kami. Bili ng cake para pangthank you ko kela Mommy at Daddy dahil binilhan ako ng pc at cp. =)

Sarado na Trinoma. Eh gusto ko mag-ice cream. Sarado na Mcdo, Jabee, etc. Wala... Uwi na.. huhu.. Gustong-gusto ko pa naman mag-ice cream. Naalala ni Kambal na pwede pa pala sa Landmark na foodcourt. Baba kami. Yey. Sundae kami kahit Thursday.

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Uwian na!! May bata pang lumapit sa amin, hinihingi ice cream namin, banat na naman si Kambal, "Hala.. Ayoko nga.. Ang dami pa hinihingi mo na.. Pano na lang ako??" Natawa tuloy si kuyang nakatambay. Haha.

UE LETRE. Sakay. Yung upuan umaalog pa! Pag gumalaw kami, malalaglag kami dahil lulusot mga pwet namin dun sa butas. Haha! Pero syempre, walang pipigil sa amin sa pagpipichur. Picture kami twing titigil yung bus. =)

Bahay na. Past 10PM. Kain cake. Binigyan ni Mommy gift si Kambal. Ako nga wala pa gip sa kanya. Huhu. Then hinatid namin si Kambal sa bahay nila..

Hay. Nakakatuwa. Nakakamiss yung ganitong bonding moments namin ni Kambal. =) Next time ulit! Labyu Kambal! =)

Yey!

2008-10-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

My dad bought me a new phone! Wala lang. Masaya lang ako.

Monday = New PC.

Wednesday = New CP

Yey! Lablab Dada!! =)

REMINISCING

2008-10-14T11:28:00.000+08:00

Why do I feel this way? Ngayon ok ako, mamaya hindi, bukas super saya, kinagabihan parang kala mo mamamatay na. Ang etchos. Di ako maka-move on.. At parang ayoko rin mag-move on..

I miss the days..

-Yung sobrang tensyonado pag may quiz.

-Yung hindi natutulog kakakabisado ng formulas at pag-aaral nung mga tamang procedure sa pag-solve ng etchos ng math.

-Yung pumapasok sa school na walang assignment tapos magka-cram sa one hour break para kumain at komopya ng mga assignments sa classmates.

-Yung makipagsiksikan sa LRT tuwing umaga..

-Yung maglakad mula Tayuman papuntang UST..

-Yung mangarag pagkalabas ng Lab..

-Yung maglunch ng ice cream bun lang na tig-P10 na binili kay Manong Ice Cream sa tapat ng Eng'g buiding..

-Yung tumambay sa Pav with friends..

-Yung makipagchikahan sa guidance counselor naming si Ma'am Irish..

-Yung antukin sa Theo at piliting wag makatulog o huwag mapikit kasi katapat ko lang si ma'am at piliting makinig sa kwento nila Stripe at Yellow.

-Yung tumakbo na halos papasok ng building kasi late na..

-Yung McDo moments, libreng upsize..

-Yung pagpila sa mahabang pila sa KFC at gawing sabaw yung gravy nila..

-Yung super tagal na pagdedecide kung saan kakain tuwing breaktime..

-Yung Angelus tuwing 12 noon..

-Yung candy break tuwing kalagitnaan ng class..

-Yung paghanap ng jeep na may Remedios.

-Yung pagpapaphotocopy sa 4th floor at pagpila ng matagal dun pag Prelim o Finals week na dahil parang blockbuster sa haba yung pila..

-Yung pag lagay ng 3-6-7-5 na code..

-Yung vanity moments na kahit may maglabas lang ng cellphone eh kelangan talaga magpicture.

-Yung pagpopose sa CR dahil picturan moments.

-Yung Calamares moments sa Dapitan. P20, 7pcs.

-Yung Ice Cream sessions sa Ministop Dapitan. Pati yung pabilisan kumain ng ice cream at walang papatak mula sa ice cream.

-Yung pagkiKiss sa carpark. Ok, mali iniisip niyo. Thomasians lang makakarelate. XD

-Yung pag-upo sa corridors ng Eng'g building, lalo na sa 5th floor tapos para makatayo, eh, aalalayan pa ng friend.

-Yung paghahabol ng deadline ng mga projects, programs, papers pati yung mga practice para sa mga plays.

-Yung mga skit na impromptu ginagawa na super nakakatawa.

-Yung paghiram ng laptop at projector sa dean's office..

-Yung pagtunog ng ID sa pagpasok ng Eng'g building..

-Yung pagpila ng matagal sa mahabang pila pag magbabayad ng tuition.

-Yung super haggarding na enrollment. (Sariling terminology!)

-Yung chikahan sa may locker sa 2nd floor..

-Yung drinking fountain sa 3rd floor - dun lang kasi malamig.

-Yung Rm.56 na hindi kami tinatantanan..

-Yung mainit na Rm.60.

-Yung malalamig na Lab.

-Yung computers na may tatak na "Built for UST" at may logo pa ng UST.

-Yung pag-akyat papuntang 5th floor na super nakakahingal..

-Yung pagbangon ng bago mag-5am pag may 7am na class.

-Yung pagrereview sa LRT at sa jeep.

-Yung paghiram ng test papers ng classmates na may matataas na scores para gawing reviewer sa exams.

-Yung sitting arrangement based sa surnames.

-Yung mga halimaw na profs na hayup magbigay ng exam na kahit sila Einstein pa mag-exam eh babagsak rin.

-Yung mga galanteng prof na kahit wala kang ginagawa, 1.25 ang grade mo, basta may seatworks ka at mabait ka.

-Yung biglaang nagsusulputang mga rivers sa labas at loob ng campus tuwing umuulan.

-Yung pagpapaturo kay Raisa at Amber pag may exam sa math - algeb man, trigo, geom, whatever pa yan.

-Yung pagpupunta sa Lib hindi para magresearch kundi para magchikahan.

-Yung pagtambay sa Lover's Lane.

-Yung paghihintay sa HardRock.

-Yung pagsuot ng uniform na parang yung sa Yellow Cab.

-Yung mga crazy friends at never ending na tawanan.

-Yung mga chikahan tungkol sa boylets ni Pepita.

-Yung pag-akyat sa overpass sa Espana.

-Yung pagdala ng parang overnight bag na ang laman ay PE uniform.

-Yung pagpunta sa Med Audi para manood ng kung anu-ano.

-Yung pagpunta sa ESC Office.

-Yung walang pasok tuwing Mondays.

-Yung walang discount sa pamasahe tuwing Saturday.

-Yung pamimili sa Quiapo.

-Yung pamimili ng books na kelangan.

-Yung pagkuha ng Varsitarian.

At syempre, higit sa lahat..

-Yung mga taong tinuturing kong mga KAPATID na kahit kailan ay di ko magagawang kalimutan. Yung mga taong sobrang mahal ko kahit sa isang taon lang na pagsasama. Kahit ano pa man maging section niyo, 1CS4 man yan o 2CSB, kayo pa rin yung mga taong sobrang pinahahalagahan ko. Walang kalimutan! Mahal ko kayong lahat!

Nasaan pa man ako ngayon, Lasalista man tawag sa akin, kahit GREEN na ang kulay ko ngayon, sa puso ko, ako pa rin yung Tomasinong Kay na naka-bonding niyo noon.

I love you friends! Miss ko na kayo.. sobra..

Finals Week

2008-10-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

Ang bilis! Tapos na halos yung sem, di ko naramdaman. Ganun yata talaga pag busy.. O nagpapakabusy.. Araw-araw kasi, nilolook forward ko yung Wednesday at Friday, kaya parang ang bilis..

Finals Week na! 11 ang subjects ko. Isang araw lang ako nag-exam!! Ma-ingget kayo!!! Hahahaha.. Wala lang. Tambak naman ng mga gagawin. Kaya ayun, gagawa muna ako. Nakakakaba ang grades. Amp.

Best of luck sa inyo guys. Kaya natin 'to! CSB, miss ko na kayoooo...

Reunion with the People I Love Most

2008-10-05T08:57:00.000+08:00

[ 10.08.03 ]

Greatest day ever!

Bagong dictionary ko sa araw na to:

Cram – Kapag may take home finals ka tapos kelangang kelangan mo na ipasa before 9:30am pero nalimutan mo kaya sobrang nagmamadali ka.

Mini Olympics – Sa school ko lang yata to. Annual event na naglalaban ang mga PE classes na hawak ng limang PE professors.

Basketball – Team sport kung saan nagpapasahan kayo ng bola habang tumatakbo. Pwedeng mambalya, pwedeng mag-double dribble pero bawal ang TRAVELLING. Maraming beses ka pwede mag-dive at makahuli ng isda. Pwede ka ring mapilay, matulak, masiko. At pag sumigaw ka ng bad words, instant bola na ng kalaban niyo, hindi uso ang technical.

Ang malas dito pa gang unang laban mo eh mga title holder na galing naman sa ibang competition ng basketball, at pag may mga nakalaro kang mga boyish sobra, hayup maglaro. Omg. After ng laban, pag magsuot ka ng color PINK, kasing kulay na ng mukha mo yung damit mo. At parang never ending yung pawis mo. Pag may mga makasalubong ka, tatanungin ka kung bagong ligo ka. Ang sagot? “Oo, bagong ligo…sa pawis!!” Marami ring nagsabi, “Ang galing mo, Kay! Idooool!!” At sobrang uso ng word na Idol pag hawak ko na ang bola (waw kapal haha) pero ang masaklap, pag pinasa ko tapos iba ang makakasalo, tanga. Hahaha.

Volleyball – Team sport rin na nagpapasahan ng bola thru pagtama ng bola sa arms. Pinaka-importanteng skill, SERVICE!

“Sumigaw ka ng MINE!”, “Alalayan mo team mates mo!”, “Ikaw ang magdala ng laban!” Script yan sa akin ng prof/coach ko.

Laro ‘to sa isang court na open, kaya sobrang inet, ang taas kasi ng araw. Ang basketball kasi ang nasa loob ng gym nilaro noon. After ng laban, may marka na ng pagkaitim sa arms mo. Pag talo ka pa, sayang yung initim mo, ang hirap kayang pumuti. Pero ok lang kasi Masaya naman, at maraming pumuri sayo sobra. Haha.

May mga nagcheer din habang tumitira ako, “Go Kim!!!” pero di ko pinapansin. After ng laban, nilapitan ako nung nagcheecheer, “Ang galing mo, Kim!!” Sagot ko? “Kay po! Hindi Kim!! Haha.. Pero thanks po!”Ahh! Kaya ko raw pala hindi siya pinapansin, mali kasi tawag niya sa akin! Haha.. Akala ko nga LIM yung sinisigaw eh, kaya lumingon ako nun once, nung sumigaw ulit tapos naintindihan ko na KIM pala yung sinisigaw, hindi na ako lumingon. Ako pala si Kim. Haha. Bagong pangalan ko yan guys.

Extra Jaws – Energy drink yan na parang juice na soda pero ewan ng lasa. Whateber man yung spelling nun, di ko alam. Hati kami nung team mate ko sa table tennis na galing sa game niyang volleyball, ¾ sa kanya, ¼ sa akin. Oha. Parang effective pero mas parang di naman effective.

Shifter – Kapag varsity ka ng ibang sport pero nakita kang naglalaro ng ibang sport at pinasasali rin sa varsity ng sport na yun.

Orange Cab – Parang jeep na ewan na sinasakyan sa Taft para makapunta sa CCP, Star City, basta sa may doon-doon. Maiispatan mo yung mga ito sa may gilid ng Rizal Memorial Stadium.

Traffic – Kapag sobrang nagmamadali ka tapos yung mga sasakyan din a gumagalaw, nakapila sila sa kalsada tapos maraming nagsisipag-busina. Nakaka-chever churva etchos. Tapos after mo maghintay ng matagal, maiisipan mo nang bumaba dahil marerealize mong wala kang future pag hinintay mo pa yung jeep makarating dun sa pupuntahan mo.

Star City – Isang amusement park sa tabi ng Aliw Theatre. Ang entrance ay maraming colorful na box-box na ewan. Pag pasok mo, maraming mga tiyangge na ang cucute ng mga binebenta. Maraming mga arcade games at kakaibang rides. Maraming mga taong naglalakad na may nakasulat sa likod nila na “P.E.”. Parang ang PE nila ay pagsakay sa rides, hayep.

VIP Ticket – Ride-all-you-can ticket na nilalagay sa right wrist mo tapos tatatakan. Color white ito tapos may star na naka-drawing. Presyo? Tumataginting na P300.

CSB – Pinakacool na mga tao sa buong mundo. Ito yung mga taong may hawak ng puso ko. Pag nakita naming ang isa’t-isa, may hug ako mula sa lahat ng girls at super kamusta as in super mula sa guys. Tapos may matching “I miss you” pa. Sinong di matatouch?

Ito ay yung grupo ng mga tao na sobrang adik sa pictures at pagpipicture. Pwede na ring adik sa videos. Kapag may naglabas na ng cellphone at gawin ang “picture stance”, asahan mong magsisipagkumpulan na ang mga ito tapos magsisipag-smile at magsisiksikan para lang masama sa picture.

Ito ay mga magkakapatid pero magkakaiba ang apilyido. Sabay-sabay kumain at sobrang mahal ang isa’t-isa.

Picture Stance – Ito yung palatandaan pag magpipicture yung tao. Bigla na lang itataas yung cellphone tapos babaliktarin para sa kanya nakaharap yung camera ng cellphone.

Snow Castle – Isang etchos na meron sa Star City. May entrance fee to na P90. Bawal ang cameras and cellphones. Bibigyan ka ng isang plastic para dun mo ilagay yung mga cellphone at camera mo tapos bubuhulin nila yung dulo. Tapos bibiyan ka nila ng jacket na may hood. Papahiramin pala. Pag pasok mo dito, parang magtatransform yung mundo mo, malilimutan mong nasa Pilipinas ka pa. Uusok yung bibig mo pag nagsalita ka. May snow. Mamamanhid yung mga daliri mo sa sobrang lamig. May sleigh ride rin. Pila ka para makakuha nung inuupuan na kunwari sleigh pero sa totoo eh chopping board lang, seryoso. Tapos aakyat ka dun sa mountain kunwari. Aalalayan ka ng kuya sa pag-upo sa ‘sleigh’ mo, ipapahawak sa left hand yung handle ng sleigh mo at yung right hand ipapahawak sa tenga mo para may balance ka, tapos itutulak ka. Ang saya! Slide sa yelo!!!

Surf Dance – Isang ride sa Star City na pagilid-gilid. Sobrang haba ng pila pero sulit naman. Medyo nakakahilo pero masaya sobra. Ang isisigaw, hindi “aaaaahhhh!!!” kundi “Go USTe!!!!” Nakakatakot lalo na pag ma-angle yung galaw. Nakaka-omg!!

Star Flyer – katapat na ride ng Surf Dance. Mahaba rin yung pila, sobra. Parang baby roller coaster pero hayup sobra. Bumabaliktad pa. Ride na gusting-gusto ng iba pero ayaw na ayaw ng iba.

Wild River – Isang ride na sinakyan naming na nakaupo kami sa parang log tapos umaakyat sa parang ewan tapos biglang bumabagsak. Maraming nababasa dito pero swerte dahil di kami nabasa. Haha! Partners ko si Amber and Lyrabels. =)

Lechon Kawali – Food na dinner ng CSB. Inorder sa may foodcourt sa DinoLand. Nagulat pa ang kahera na 20+ ang inorder nung friend ko. Package na kasama drinks.

Curfew – Oras na hinahabol ni Aira kundi di na papapasukin sa dorm. 10PM ang curfew niya.

Toyota Corolla – Sasakyan namin nung sinundo ako nila Mommy. 4 kaming nagkasya sa likod.

Detour – Ginagawa kapag traffic. Tinatawag ring pag-iwas sa traffic.

Overnight – Ito yung ginagawa kapag hindi na napapasok sa dorm. Imbes na matulog sa MiniStop o Wendy’s, sa friend ka na lang makitulog, kaya nga may friend eh di ba. Pero sayang kapag napapasok na sa dorm, goodbye overnight, wala nang chika-chikahan at heart-to-heart talks.

Cool – ito ay kapag lahat ng gastos eh nilibre ng 2 friends mo ( Super thanks talaga, Wiki and Lyra! Labyu!!! ) Mula sa lunch sa Binalot (kahit di ako nakasama dahil wala pa ako nun), pamasahe, VIP Ticket, entrance fee sa Snow Castle hanggang dinner. Lahat-lahat libre. At take note, almost 30 kaming nilibre nilang dalawa. Sobrang galante. Utang namin sa inyo yung araw na yun.

October 03, 2008 – Ito ang resulta kapag pinagsama-sama lahat ng terms sa taas. Super fun-filled day grabe. Mahal na mahal ko ang araw na to. Salamat ulit sa inyong lahat!

It's BREAKUP Season

2008-09-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

If you notice, I upload my entries in bulk. I type my entries almost everyday or every other day, pero I cannot upload these right away for we do not have a broadband connection now at home. Merong dial-up connection pero besides sa super slow-mo, unstable pa.

So, here is something I have observed this past few days:

It's BREAKUP SEASON.

I've been informed of 3 surprising breakups in just 3 days. The first one was last Friday, as soon as I entered our room, my friend approached me and said, "Uy, Kay.. Yung dvd mo.. Palitan ko na lang ha? Kasi hindi ko na makuha yun sa girlfriend ko dahil nag-break na kami. Sakto pang 4th anniversary namin siya nakipag-break.." Just hearing his words, I can feel the pain he is suffering from right now, parang pati ako na-heartbroken. Our professor wasn't around then because she is sick. Good thing that she's my only professor that day for two subjects, so I was free that day. I decided to go to UST to see my friends. Sakto lang kasi manonood ako ng play ng 1PM somewhere in Manila.

I was shocked in the second breakup story I was informed about. My UST friend and her girlfriend broke up that week. Nagulat ako kasi super loyal, super malambing, super mahal na mahal ni guy friend si girl niya. Ayun, after about 2 years (can’t remember the exact duration eh), ayun. Separated. Si guy ang nakipag-break kasi lagi na raw sila nag-aaway, pero mahal pa niya si girl.

Sunday, Sept. 21, 2008, my highschool friend texted me saying that she and her boyfriend broke-up. Medyo may problems nga sila these past few days/weeks pero I did not expect na aabot agad yun sa breakup. 2 years and 4 months – ended in just a minute.

What’s painful about breakups is the fact that you are used to their company (bf / gf), sa araw-araw mong buhay eh kasama na sila sa lahat ng gagawin mo – sa mga lakad, mga plans, sa mga gawain like pagtetext ng buong araw, pagtambay, etc. Tapos you will wake up na wala nap ala yung “nakasanayan” mong yun. Everytime na madadaanan mo yung tinatambayan niyo, lilitaw na naman siya diyan sa utak mo. Pag tumunog yung cellphone mo, iisipin mong siya yun, pero sa pagtingin mo sa phone mo, ibang tao pala ang nagtext. Pag may lakad o event tapos bigla mong maiisip na isama siya then marerealize mo na hindi na pala possible yun, kasi wala na kayo.

Another thing to be blamed for the pains a breakup brings are the MEMORIES. Yun yun eh. Kung walang memory, hindi mo maaalala yung mga nangyari before nung kayo pa at hindi ka na magiging bitter. It serves as a magnet that prevents you from moving on – just attached to the past, kahit wala nay un madudulot na mabuti.

Ayun, so if I were you, hold on tight to the one you love. Please wag kayong sumabay sa uso – my so-called “Breakup Season”. Hearing these stories breaks my heart though I’m not involved. Ayoko lang siguro talaga ng separation kahit kanino pa man, kahit saan pa man.

Eto ang Program Ko

2008-09-23T05:24:00.001+08:00

Nasa Computer Lab. Hindi naman nagpoprogram. Amp. Amp. Tinatamad ako super! Singly Linked List. Gawa ng 2 programs, hindi naman naturo. Eh pano ka gagawa nyan? Finals namin to, at wala yata ako balak gawin to. Nu ba nangyayari sa akin?

Bakit ka magpapakahirap gumawa ng program kung alam mong mali rin naman o hindi talaga magagawa? Mag-Multiply ka na lang, o kaya Friendster, pwede rin Youtube o magdownload ng kung anu-ano, mas masaya pa.

Eh ako, anong ginagawa ko ngayon? Eto, super upload ng pictures sa Shutterfly, mas mabilis kasi dun kesa sa dito sa Multiply, then i-upload ko na lang dito via Shutterfly. Oh dba. Tsaka may binabasa akong blog sa Multip. Nakakaaliw.

Bagong contact ko lang sa Multiply yun, hindi kami magkakilala, pero she knows something about me na personal. Haha. Amazing. If you're reading my blog, you know who you are. Haha. Ok lang yun. Nakakatuwa magbasa ng blog, kahit hindi mo kilala yung tao, parang ang interesting, ewan ko kung bakit. And what's weird is I read almost all of your entries. Adik. Haha. Twice ko pa lang yata nagagawa un. Haha. Iba kasi dating sa akin pag madrama yung blog. Haha. Palibasa nakakarelate. ampupu. haha. Na-eemo ako lalo. hahaha.

Malapit na checkan ang program ko, NAKAKATAMAAAADDD!!

Nga pala. Magsipag-comment naman kayo! Ang hirap kayang magpost tapos walang nagcocomment. Binabasa nga, wala naman comment. Ahuhu. Comments, friends!! Wahaha. Para ma-inspire naman ako dito sa Multiply oh. Thaaaannkkss!!

Eto ang Program Ko

2008-09-23T05:24:00.000+08:00

Malapit na checkan ang program ko, NAKAKATAMAAAADDD!!

09.20.08 Entry

2008-09-22T05:11:00.000+08:00

430AM.

Tulog pa ako syempre, wala pa ako sa kalaliman ng tulog ko nyan, puyat kasi ako parati. Actually, wala nang word na “PUYAT” sa dictionary ko, as in ~~PUYAT.~~

May ingay. Nagising yung kalahating ako. May ingay pa rin. Nagising pa yung kalahati nung kalahating ako na tulog (sa mga naguluhan, ¾ na ako na ang gising. Haha. Math to, praktis! Haha.) Antttoook pa ako.. Bakit ba ako ginigising, eh wala naman akong pasok?!

Saka pa lang nagregister sa akin yung ingay.. “Justine!!! Gising naa!” Hindi ko gaano pinansin. Maya-mayang konti, naririnig ko pa yun.

“Chie, gising ka naaaa… Wake up naaa…” Paulit-ulit ko sinabi yun. Then nakatulog ulit ako. After 5mins or less, naririnig ko pa rin yun kaya ginigising ko ulit si Ache.

8 AM.

“Kaaaaayy!!! Gisiiing naaaaa…”

Ayyy, an aga aga pa.. Bakit ba kanina pa ako ginigising. Hindi man lang makatulog ng maayos oh..

Dilat mata. Tumingin sa bed ni Ache. Tingin sa oras. NANLAKI ANG MATA.

Hala! 8 na pala! Akala ko ba 9am kami aalis??! Kumaripas pababa.

0945AM.

Ok. Ayus talaga. 10AM ang party, ang layo pa nun at hahanapin pa naming yung place. 15mins na lang 10am na. Late na naman.

SA BYAHE.

Naiwan sa bahay ang invitation card na may mapa ng papuntang venue kaya bumalik ulit sa bahay. Nag-gm ng emo na quote. Traffic sa NLEX, actually hindi traffic, mahaba lang pila pala ng kotse sa toll gate. Inaantok ako.

1040AM

Ciudad Grande. Yey, andito na kami! Paano ko kaya papatayin oras ko maya? Mga parents na naman ang mga nandito kundi mga chikiting. OP ako. Huhu.

1145AM.

Start na ang party. Filipino time di ba? Kelan pa nagging 1145AM ang 1000AM? Wahaha. Nagsalita ang hindi late. Hahaha. Hayuf, may ni-rent silang Manong Ice Cream together with his kariton. Meron din Mr. Cotton Candy, syempre, tulad ni Mr. Ice Cream, kasama ang kanyang mahiwagang cotton candy machine. Tapos meron ding parang fountain ng chocolate, sa paligid nun, may mga plates na may apples, cheese, marshmallow, pineapple, lahat yung naka-tusok sa stick. Cool no? Haha! Bale yung nasa stick, kelangan malagyan yung nung chocolate galing sa choco fountain tapos titigas yung chocolate. Cool. =)

Daming foods grabe. Daming freebies. Daming toys. Daming bata. Daming parents. Isa lang akong teen. Ahuuhu! LONER. Haha. Nag-drama daw ba. Waaa..

May nag-magic, si Mr.Nap Vargas yata yun, basta Mr. Nap. Haha. Record holder pala yun sa Guiness Book, longest magic show yata. Basta. Cool. Benta pa kasi hindi siya magic lang, lakas ng sense of humor nya, matatawa ka talaga, entertaining. =) Magic is an ART.

McDo naman ang next, sila may hawak ng games, grabe ang freebies nila. Wow. Bongga ng children’s party.

At eto pa ha, may 7 Candles, 7 Balloons, 7 Gifts at 7 Roses pa sya. Talo pa yung debut ko, wahaha.

Meryenda time! Kainan na naman. Ayoko na i-ellaborate yung foods, sobrang dami kasi.

May kumausap sa aking parents dun, tapos may nakausap rin akong Thomasian (Eng’g siya dati! Parang ako lang! Wahaha.) at meron din akong nakausap na professor, attourney. Bigatin.

Billiards, billiards, billiards. Sabi ni kuya, “Kanina ko pa napapansin, pinagbibigyan mo lang kami! Bumabackstroke ka pa jan, kita mo ngayon, puro pasok na yung bola! Yan ba ang hindi marunong?!” Hayuf terminologies ni kuya eh, yung bumabackstroke nay un na sinasabi nya, eh, tumitira na nasa likod yung taco (tako? Basta yung stick! Hahaha.), alanganin kasi yung position nung bola, pang-left, eh right ako. Ay basta gets nyo na yun. Kung alam mo lang kuya. Haha. Nakakaadik magbilliards. Wahaha. May ka-age rin pala ako dun sa party. Hahaha.

Picture, picture, picture.

Billiards ulit.

Ok uwian naaa! Ahon na sa pool mga chikiting bulilits!

AFTER PARTY.

Nagpunta kami sa Makati. May pinick-up lang na chocolates. Haha. Dumaan kami sa UST, nakakamiss.. huhuhu. Parang kahapon lang andun ako, at oo, andun talaga ako kahapon. Wahaha. Dumaan rin kami sa Paco, at ayun, may naalala na naman ako. Miss nap o kita. Wah. Uuuyyy. Hahahah.

Ayun. Daming chocs! At may chocolate pala na Marks & Spencer. Hahaha. Cool!

At yun, nagtatype ngayon. Patapos na tong entry ko. Sorry, adik lang sa entry. Wahh! Tagalog na tagalong yan.

1157PM.

Save. Close. Shut Down.

Memories

2008-09-22T05:05:00.000+08:00

MEMORIES. Why do we have this? Yup, it serves as a treasure chest for our past, for the events in our lives that we cherish, that we want to remember. Gusto ko pa ngang maka-invent ng gadget na ma-aattach natin sa brains at hearts natin tapos naka-connect sa isang monitor para makita natin yung mga naiisip/naaalala natin o ng ibang tao, parang USB cable at port, para pag may event kang gusting maalala, ikakabit mo lang yung cable na yun sa utak mo at sa monitor (tv man yan or whatever), poof! Andiyan na sa harap mo at pwede na i-save sa kung ano mang device, cd man yan, HD, dvd, etc.

Pero syempre, we also have these painful memories. Yung mga pop nang pop sa utak mo kahit ayaw mong maalala dahil they never fail to make you upset o depressed. At eto ang mahirap. Kahit ayaw mong maalala, ayaw mo rin namang kalimutan talaga yung memories, part na yun ng past mo and kahit anong gawin mo, it can never be changed nor reverted.

Why People Have a Hard Time Moving On

2008-09-22T04:19:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered why people fall in love? How we fall in love? How bout people not falling in love?

Funny that we can’t command our hearts to do something we like. I mean, have you tried telling your heart to stop loving? What happened? You still end up loving that person more.

There are certain things that a person possess that makes us fall for them. Bakit ganon, marami namang mas angat sa taong ito pero sa kanya ka nagkakagusto. Maraming mas gwapo/maganda, mas mabait, mas matalino, mas friendly, mas talented, mas sa lahat ng bagay pero dito ka pa rin sa taong to nahuhulog. True, isn’t it?

Meron din na taong almost perfect na pero kahit anong gawin mo, hindi mo kayang mahalin. Bakit kaya?

How about not loving a certain person? Yung love mo, pero ayaw mong i-love. Bakit kaya hindi mo magawang hindi siya i-love? Yung gusto mong kalimutan, pero parang every effort na ginagawa mo para kalimutan siya, eh lalo mo lang naaalala. It all goes down the drain. Complicated, isn’t it? Contradicting.

This is why people have a hard time moving on.

Kzaiwo

2008-09-22T04:03:00.000+08:00

KZAIWO. Many are wondering where I got that name from. Seems mysterious, eh? Haha.. And I have this friend na super duper kinukulit na ako to tell him what it means or where I got it. Everytime na makakasalubong ko siya, ang sinasabi lang niya eh, "So whats the story behind Kzaiwo?" Medyo matagal-tagal na yung pangungulit nya, so, I decided to write an entry na lang regarding my pseudo, Kzaiwo.

I started using this name way back first year highschool. Totoo lang, nakakahiya yung pinanggalingan nito kaya ayoko sana kahit sino lang makaalam, kasi parang cool ang kzaiwo, tapos mysterious pa raw.. Well, ganito kasi yun.. 2004 - F4 Phenomenon. Every girl is going gaga for them. Kahit saan ka magpunta, may makikita at makikita kang F4 stuff.. At that time rin, naadik ako sa F4. At ang super kinabaliwan ko nun is si Ken Chu (Xi Men sa Meteor Garden). Eh, medyo baliw ako, nangangarap. Naisip ko nga dati na first love ko si Ken. Wahaha.. Very funny. haha!! Ayun, so.. Kzaiwo was originally (o supposedly) Kcaiwo, which stands for Ken Chu AI WO.. Yung first two letters ay yung initials ng name ni Ken and "AI WO" means "loves me" in Chinese. Eh parang di bagay, KCAIWO. So, pinalitan ko na lang ng Z ung C and poof! KZAIWO was born. Oh di ba. Nakakahiya and nakakatawa. Pero that's it. Thanks na rin to my Oh-so-Ken-Chu-addict me, nabuo yung name na to..

Now, Kzaiwo is my trademark na. Basta may kzaiwo, ako na yun. Ako lang ang ganyan. Ako lang yan. So if you come across an artwork, a video or whatever that has "kzaiwo" in it, that's mine. Pag may hinahanap ka ring account ko, malamang kzaiwo ang pangalan nun. Haha.. Try Goggling Kzaiwo, ako lahat yun. Haha! (Sariling terminology ko yan, means "to search".)

GREATEST PERSON IN ME

2008-09-08T09:38:00.002+08:00

Haha.. This is a lie. Whoever I am right now isn't the person I really am, the person I was and the person I should be. My life's a mess now. Lahat napapabayaan ko na. I take my studies for granted, as in. Midterm ko mamaya sa RC, 10 chapters yata? Basta mahaba! haha.. Kitams. Tapos I haven't studied even a bit. MODEL STUDENT NGA TALAGA AKO, di ba? haha!

Smart.
Pretty.
Athletic.
Unique.
Chinita.
Masipag.
Mabait.
Cute.
Leader.
Talented.
Magaling mag-Photoshop.
Techy.
Maputi.
Mayaman.
Achiever.

These are the words commonly associated to me, ayon sa mga tao. You want to be me? You think I'm perfect? I'm flawless? Well, think again. Ako nga ayaw ko na sa akin eh. People tend not to see my imperfections, akala nila I have everything na. But look at me, AM I HAPPY? Kung pwede nga lang maging ibang tao muna, kahit isang araw lang, gusto ko lang namang ngumiti ulit. I'm sick of everything. I'm tired of living this monotonous life. Ganun na lang araw-araw, wala namang pinagbabago. I'm barely breathing.

Surveying the Past

2008-09-08T09:25:00.002+08:00

Got this from RaiRai.. haha..

ONE PERSON IN MIND SURVEY..!Isip ka ng ISANG tao. i-base mo sakanya ang mga isasagot mo. WALANGibahan ng naisip.

1.)friend mo ba siya sa friendster
- yep.

2.) Bakit siya napili mo sa survey naito?
- kasi sya ang naisip ko kaya sya ang napili ko. haha!

3.) anong lugar ang naaalala mo sakanya?
- lahat sa Manila. XD

4.)anong song ang naaalala mo sakanya..?
- Samson (Regina Spektor)

5. ) bakit?
- wala lang. hahaha.

6 .) okay ba ang height?
- yep, matangkad. hahaha. nakakapanliit nga eh.

7.) magaling ba kumanta?
- opo. as in. hahaha..

8.)eh sumayaw?
- oo rin! hayuf un eh. hahaha..

9.)May kamukha ba siyangartista/singer??
- wala eh. unique daw kasi xa. hahaha..

10.)close ba kayo??
- dati oo. haha..

11.) nakita mo na siyang magalit?
- yep, dati. hahaha..

12.) eh ngumiti?
- yes naman, lagi yun naka-smile eh. hahaha..

13.) eh umiyak?
- halos.

14.)ano fave food nya?
- madami eh. hahaha.

15 .)pinaiyak ka ba niya?
- haha.. oo! hahaha.. lagi!

16. ) pinaiyak mo ba siya?
- oo rin yata. hahaha.. XD

17 . ) anong fave niyang sport?
- marami eh, iba talaga pag mga athletic. hahaha..

18 .) anong fave niyang song?
- marami. mr.brightside yata fav nya ngaun. hahaha..

19.) anong tawagan niyo?
- pangalan namin. hahaha.

20. ) ano message mo sa kanya?
- Be happy! hahaha..

21. ) kayo ba?
- nino!? hahahaha.. XD

22. ) mahal mo ba?
- XD (pagaya lang rai, hahaha..)

23. ) anong name niya?
- aka "samwan" hahaha..

24. ) kelan kayo huling nagkita?
- nung 27th yata ng august. di ko maalala. hahaha.

25. ) describe mo siya in 1 word
- incomparable. naks. hahaha.. ang etchos ko.

STM

2008-08-29T14:26:00.002+08:00

Lately I've been having this Short Term Memory (STM). I tend to forget almost everything that happened recently. Pero ang weird dun, yung mga matagal nang events, naaalala ko. At hindi talagang nalilimutan, pero super effort para maalala ko yung mga nangyaring recent. Ano ba nangyari kaninang umaga? Anong oras nga ba ako natulog kagabi? Amp. Nakakaasar na. Wala bang gamot dito?

Tuwing may mga MAJOR EVENTS na nakakapagpadepress sa akin, laging umaatake tong STM na to. Parang nung 4 years ago.. Mahigit isang taon pa bago ako bumalik sa katinuan! Ayoko na! Huhu. Eh how much more pa kaya ngayon na lahat yata ng events nangyayari sa akin. Huhu!

AyheytyuST

Publish Post

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The Comeback

2008-08-26T09:50:00.001+08:00

Argh. I published an entry but I can't find it! I have to type everything over again. Huhu. =(

I never thought I'd blog again. I read 3 blogs lately that inspired me to write again, to blog again about what I feel though I can't feel anything anymore. I'm numb. Oh, maybe I do feel.. PAIN.

Can't understand anything at all. I'm lost. I'm confused.
I talked to a friend last night and we figured out that I'm experiencing this so-called "After Event Depression". Sa madaling salita, nalulungkot ako sa mga bagay na tapos na. Sa mga bagay na wala na tayong magagawa pa para baguhin. Ang masaklap dun, eh, nagkasabay-sabay lahat ng cause ng sadness ko. I feel like I've lost everything. As in everything. Yeah, I have my God, my family, a batallion of friends everywhere, but everyone knows that there is this certain point in your life when we feel nothing's enough.. Everything's not enough. Nangingibabaw sa akin yung loneliness. Yung longing sa mga bagay na nakasanayan ko na. Yeah, I'm living in my past and I tend to compare things that are happening to me NOW to my PAST. I can't help it. Tell me how to stop this 'coz I ain't happy bout this either.

I'm drained out. There is no life left in me. So what's the point of living? Nakakasawa na, ganun rin naman araw-araw. Nakakapagod na. When can I be happy again?

"Nothing's permanent, everything's temporary."

I always think of that line to make me feel better. Darating din yung araw na magiging masaya ako. When will I be back to who I was? I can't understand myself anymore. Can you help me understand me??

"I'm sad 'coz I realized how blissfully unaware I am of my loneliness."-Revised ni Art Santos, taken from the movie "Failure to Launch".

Bagay sa akin yung line na yan. Pero the only difference is yung last part, I am aware of my loneliness pero I try to hide it, sana nga mag-disappear na si loneliness. Pero sa ngayon, malabo yun, BESTFRIEND KO SI LONELINESS EH. INSEPARABLE KAMI NGAYON. The hell. Amp. Sino pwede pumalit kay Loneliness diyan? O yung pwedeng magtaboy sa kanya? Kung ikaw yun, feel free to approach me. You are more than welcome.
Who/What can make me happy? Can you?

Roller Coaster Ride

2007-01-16T15:41:00.000+08:00

Woah! Grabeh. My life's has been experiencing this roller coaster ride. haha. From being happy, all of a sudden, a trouble comes and makes me sad and miserable.

I thought everything in my life is fine nowadays, but I'm totally wrong. Actually, the opposite happened. Quite a disaster from my school life to my personal life. I don't even know what is right or wrong now! I'm so confused. I don't know what to do.

Last night, I received a call from a special friend of mine. It's been quite a while since we last talked to each other. I was happy then. After an hour, I thought that was one of my worst experience. It's because of this nonsense topic we talked about. That time, my heart started beating faster. My body felt so weak that I can't stand. My mind was blank. And tears started to fall from my eyes. I thought I'm gonna lose one of my greatest friends, one of the best people who entered my life. Am I being too sensitive? I don't know. As I said earlier, I'm SOOOO confused.

This incident affected me so much. As I woke up from my three-hour sleep, this came first in my mind. Ang sama ng feeling ko. Nakakainis si AKO. If I could just turn back time. I feel so bad. Hanggang sa pumasok ako sa school, ang sama ng pakiramdam ko. I felt like the world turned it's back on me. Everyone noticed me being SO quiet. Tahimik na nga talaga akong tao, pero, sobrang tahimik ko daw kanina. Iba daw ako kanina, parang hindi AKO.

Around 10:25 a.m. I looked at my cellphone and saw "1 message received". waah! Sana siya ito. Sana siya. Wow, siya nga. And our problem is still there. Still there. We exchanged several messages and around 11:45, tapos na ang problem namen. Oh God! Grabeh. I was so happy. So happy. Naayos ang problem namen and I'm so glad, I didn't lose one of my greatest possessions. Ang hirap atang maghanap ng taong mapagkakatiwalaan mo ngayon that's why I consider a special friend one of my greatest treasures.

It feels so bad pala of losing a friend. So bad. So treasure them as your most prized possession. Treat them as special as you treat yourself, coz a true friend is truly rare and you only get to come across them once or twice only in your life.

New Year.. New Beginning..

2007-01-01T19:18:00.000+08:00

Hey! Gosh, it's been almost half a year since I last typed an entry for my blog. Since its new year, i'll try to start off this year good. I hope I can update this blog more often than the previous year.

2006 had been a really busy year. School's really busy since this is my last year in highschool. I'm so excited finishing highschool yet I'm sure I'm gonna miss this. Hmmm.. Well, that's life. I have no choice but to move forward. College, here I come!! =)

I have a couple of plans for the year 2007. Hopefully, I can accomplish them. One of these is to do really good in college. It's not like highschool anymore where I can just do whatever I want. Just a happy-go-lucky student. I should be more serious about this.

Hmm.. I can't think of anything more to say so I'm gonna cut this here.

Oh, and by the way..
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!

wAaaaaaAAAAaAAaAAHHHH!!!

2006-11-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

wAaAH!! I.... I.... I'm speechless!!

Know why?!

I spent almost an hour typing my "comeback entry" here, and POOF! bgla koh xang na-erase accidentally!! ArgH!! Kalokah!! Huhuhuhuh..

Well, sorry guys, ill type another entry na lang the time im not busy anymore.. That'll be a couple of days or weeks pa.. Sayang talaga. Ang haba nung tinype kong entry.. PUBLISH na lang ang icclick ko, naerase pa!! Hmmmmmph!

ciao na lang for now..

- k A y -

- k Y e A n J i e -™

Destination USA..

2006-06-12T16:09:00.000+08:00

9:30 A.M. I'm still sleeping.. My sister went upstairs to wake us up. She knocked and shouted, "Aalis tayo!! Pag di kayo bumangon na ngayon, iwan na kayo!!" Immediately, I opened my eyes and thought, "ay.. im going to have my haircut nga pala.." I woke up, went downstairs and as soon as i got down, my mom told me that I can't come to the salon, my cousin just called and said that she's going to leave that night.

"WOW.. I thought she left yesterday. Good thing she's still here pa. I can see her at last!! I think almost 10 years passed since we last saw her.

We prepared ourselves and went out na, were going to my cuz's house.

It's almost 3pm when we got there. I met my cousins!! yeAh!! All of them looked the same pa rin, even my long-not-seen cuz, Ate Janice. Iba na talaga, nasa lahi eh!! hehe.. I also met my "pamangkins" Sophie, John Mark and Sean. They're big na!! Time flew so fast! I can say that Sophie is a smart kid, the way she speaks and acts, matalino talaga. Sean in the other hand, is a semi-shy adorable child. John Mark, the "Super Cute Bibbo Kid" of the house is really entertaining. He keeps lifting plastic chairs to show us he's strong! Nakakatuwa!! Oh, and by the way, they're all english speakers!! haha.. Mauubusan ka ng english mo sa ma batang yon.. =)

If you guys are familiar with PBB Teen Edition's Big Winner, Kim Chiu and her song "Peng You", i have something to share you. That song pala is a song taught to small kids in Chinese school, Chinese Nursery Song kumbaga. Kinwento pa nga sakin ng cuz ko na si Sophie, my 6-year-old pamangkin reacted when she first heard that song, "HA!? How did she know that?? Why is she singing my song!?" Natatawa tuloy ako. We are all amazed of Kim Chiu singing a nursery song!! Now, that is really funny.

6:00 PM. Ate Janice and a friend is finished packing na. She gave us "AMPAOS" as we call it in chinese, or that red envelope where Chinese people put some money. Yehey!! Hehe.. I didn't expect that. Not long after, we went home na.. I enjoyed that day, once in 10 years event! hehe.. Wait for my next posts guys, CiaO!! =)

What happens when someone breaks your heart?

2006-06-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

When someone breaks your heart, first you are shocked. Someone will say you are heartbroken and you examine the words break and heart and heartbroken and you immediately decide that it's inaccurate. You feel pain in the region of your heart and you think it's your heart breaking but one's heart doesn't really break, something else does -- faith. You stop believeing.

You just stop believing in the small things that you do, the small things that give meaning to your daily life, and you begin to think everything is pointless: Why get up? Why dress up? Why breathe in and out? What for? What for?

When someone breaksyour heart, you stop believing and you switch off the lights inside your heart. Someone is home but that someone is lying in the dark, in the room farthest from the gate, and that someone can't hear anything. Friends, parents, they all call out to her from the gate ("Come out" which means "Move on") but they are unheard, unseen, unacknowledged.

When someone breaks your heart, you turn into a small ball of self-pity. You lie in bed, in a ball. You hug your knees, keeping them close to your chest, like a fetus. Freud said it's human instinct to go back to the womb where we can feel safe.

But that's what happens when someone breaks your heart -- they steal the very thing that makes you feel safe, whole, intact.

Friendssss, friendss, friends, friend..

2006-05-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

Hah.. Have you ever thought that we have a lot of friends, but only a few are true?
When I was a child, I never though that finding a true friend is really rewarding, 'coz the first one I found is one of the best, "Ran-ran".. We've been best friends way back when I was only 4. I'm not even schooling that time! Til now, everything between us is going smooth. We're more like the air though, we may not see each other for often, but still, you can feel it's presence. Still hanging around with you though u cant see it.

Year 2001. I met this girl whose going gaga for her ultimate puppy love!! Haha!! We've been friends because of her super crush! That's really funny. We'd do crazy stuffs para lng mapansin xa ng kanyang crush! And there came a moment when her crush held her hands.. She told me after, "Hinding-hindi na ako maghuhugas ng kamay, Kay!! Promise!!" Hehe. Relieving those funny moments makes me miss her!! Hope you can get in touch again, Sheryll!

Last year, I found this person. She and another friend of mine choreographed our dance for the Intramurals. At first, I never thought we'd become friends. Maybe because of the gap between us, im only highschool and she's college na. Time passed and we discovered we have the same interests, same opinions, everything's so much the same that it's like were sharing a single brain cut into halves. Unbelievable? Well, believe it. We do a lot of stuffs na corny for others. Dahil din sa kanya, I realized, it's the simplest things in life that are the best. Who'd think biking and chatting with each other would be so happy? Nakaka-enjoy tlga, u won't even realize the day's over na.. Bitin pa kau sa pagkkwentuhan! I call her my soulmate. Know why? Read this line below..

"Ang soulmate mo ung taong may malaking nagawa sa buhay mo, girl man o guy.."
--Yang

She made a big change in my life, made me realize alot of things.. And influenced me in her own simple and life-changing ways. That's why she's my soulmate! (/\_/\)

My friends, (and my family, of course) makes my life worth living. Though full of trials, I still fight para maka-survive. They've been my strength, and xempre, c God..

It’s only now that I realized the value of a true friend. I had a lot of friends, but a lot of them just passed along in my life, just ordinary people dropping by my street of life. Right now, only 3 of them stayed with me. Through thick and thin, they did not go, yet, they reached for me when im going through the bad face of life. And because of them, im back here, still breathing, living and of course, typing this journal for my blog!! Haha. Thanks to you.

God gave us this challenge that in millions of people, thousands of acquaintances, and hundreds of friends, we have to look for these "FEW TRUE FRIENDS" that’ll be our company in our journey in this super challenging world.

This entry is dedicated to my 3 bhezt buds: Ran-Ran (my first friend), Sheryll (my long-distance friend) and to Yang (my twin friend-soulmate)..

Waiting for 'Nothing'

2006-05-19T18:18:00.000+08:00

I'm not feeling well today, both physically and emotionally. Life's really disappointing.

Yesterday and everyday, I was waiting for something. No, I waited for nothing. Umaasa lang ako sa wala.

I always get to this point. Nasasawa na nga ako. It's like waiting for a phone call when your line's dead, like waiting to rain when you're in a desert. Yet, is still have this useless hope, still waiting and waiting.

My heart's already shattered. If you only know how this feels.

I'm exhausted.

I feel so tired.

I just wish theres someone who'd come running into me, to comfort me, to care for me and to make me see na "maraming ibang bagay dyan, I’m here. Hayaan mo na un, wag kang umasa sa kanya. Hindi mo xa kawalan, in fact, xang ang nawalan."

Life's really selfish. Ang gusto mo, sadyang ayaw ibigay o ipamahagi man lng sa iyo, kahit konti. I did everything pero wala pa din tlaga. Pagod na ako, yet, im still waiting, like I don't know how to be tired, how it feels to be tired.

Trip to a New World

2006-05-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

9am..

i woke up.. today's another day..
The first thing that came in my mind was my problem, problem not about whatever u think, it was a problem regarding my course. My mom told me to decide na, "sa anong balak kong course". I have alot of interests that im having a hard-time choosing my course. Animation? medicine? nursing? interior design? hrm? computer science?? I really don't know!

Yesterday, im already decided to take INTARMED, if i can pass, or nursing. But, before that day ended, my mom told me about these courses and suggested to take a computer course instead. No more pressure, unlike nursing. Yah, i know. I'm also considering Computer Science. We're in the computer age na nga, i have a wide-range of opportunities kpag computer course, lalo pa't they're telling me na i'm good in computers, no hassle na daw for me..

So, i filled up na my UPCAT Form and wrote BS Computer as my first choice and nursing as my second.

1pm

Umalis na kme sa bahay and headed to UP. The campus is really big. Everything fascinated me. It's like being in a new world, a world where i haven't been before. We saw two girls wearing 'puruntong' and slippers, and they went closer to a car, sa kanila pala yon. Who would imagine na these girls wearing simple clothes ay may-ari ng car. Haha. It proves talaga na iba-iba ang tao sa UP. We then headed to the admissions to pass my UPCAT Form and guess what.. I saw this BIG note saying "Start of submissions of UPCAT FORMS is on May 25." Nyek. Sayang ang lakad namin, sayang ang pamasahe. Haha.

I learned a lesson today, double-check everything first, including the DATES!! That was a waste of money. Di bale na sa time. Hehe..

Imperfections Behind Perfection

2006-05-17T02:19:00.000+08:00

All i want is a simple life. And yes, i do have one, yet, im the one who makes it all complicated.

People think my life's perfect. They think i have everything. But behind everything they see, there is the other side of "KAY" they cannot see. Nothing's perfect.

Sometimes, i feel like the whole world is smiling at me. Yet, sometimes, i feel like the world already turned it's back on me.

Life is an endless life. Full of mysteries. We don't know what will happen next. All we have to do is pray and God will be the one to make all our burdens disappear, all our worries gone.